- I am just being ME -

2008-03-22T12:56:00.002+08:00

Haven't been blogging for the past 2 mths...

Sometimes busy with work, sometimes feeling lazy to type, esp having to type so many emails during working hours. *sigh...

Many things happened in office recently. I feel stressed and tired... I don't understand why such things often happen on me. I am just looking for a workplace I can work for a normal 8Hrs and to enjoy communicating effectively with my colleagues. Seemed so difficult...

Fell sick on thursday. Went for a drink after work, my colleague dragged me there...
After reaching home, vomited half of my dinner out. After taking medicine, I went online to tok to a few frenz... and accidentally fell asleep infront of the computer.

Woke up at 4+ and ran to the toilet to vomit again. Felt so sick in the stomach... Went to take some medicine again and gurgle my mouth with Listerine. It felt so awful!

Ppl are enjoying their long wkend, and here I'm stucked at hm.. sleeping and sleeping. The medicine make me feel like a walking zombie. I felt so weak... could only roll on the bed.

Yawnz.. but sleeping really made me feel alot better. Lolz.. the best medication!

Happy easter day my frenz!

2008-01-06T15:39:00.000+08:00

yawnz... seemed that I haven't been updating my blog for nearly 2 mths already.. hahha

Since Dec, I've been partying hard... Christmas, new yr's eve and on wkends.. hehehee

Went out with my colleagues on Christmas eve, caught a late nite movie and went for bowling till 3am... then we went for some supper, be heading home at ard 4+am.. lolz

And on New yr's eve, we went for dinner at this Jap place at marina, their ice cream is superb yummy! Followed by catchin fireworks back in the office. after the fireworks, we head to ECP for supper and the 3 of us stayed till 7+am the nxt morning before heading home. hahhaha...

Yest i was so bored, I joined SY and her frenz at Zouk and also at Winebar... coolz, haven't been partying this hard. Not bad for once in a blue moon, considering that I'm not someone who likes clubbing.. I prefer to sit somewhr quiet to chill... hahha, is this a symptom of getting older?? lolz

My eye rings are getting darker... tink I look like a panda... hhahaa

And having a few birthday celebration during Dec... was enuff to drain my energy.. having to buy presents, and christmas presents.. wah! I have nv been so tired, yet feeing happy...

well, I'll be going Bangkok later this month... with 5 other of my colleagues.. hehhe! 1st time outing with them.. coolz! Hope to come back satisfied. hhahaha, I need more work wear and shoes...!!

2007-11-18T16:44:00.000+08:00

Hi guys! I'm back from Japan already, but have been lazing around, watching taiwan dramas on crunchy roll... hahha

The trip to Japan was ok, not as fun as I thought it would be. Probably it was because we had to change hotels everyday, hence it has made shopping less easy. When we thought we can visit a shop the nxt day, we were told tt we'll be changing into another hotel. sianz.. big time turn off. hahah

Nevertheless, the weather there was terrific! I simply lurv the weather there. It was about 12-15 degrees. So much cooler and a better place to stay away from the scorching sun. The shopping malls close so much earlier than in S'pore, and so we were always force to visit those 24 hr shops like 7-11 or Family Mart.. damn pathetic. I spent most of my 700 bucks on food... yes... FOOD!!! We weren't left with much choices... coz the weather is turning cooler everyday, and soon it'll be Winter time for Japan, hence we can't expect them to be selling shorts and t-shirts rite? sianz...

We visited many places like Chinatown, Kobe, Osaka, Disneyland, Shinjuku, Mt Fuji and many more. We gave up going to the Warner Bro's Studio for a visit to Kobe instead.. wat a waste! We must go there the nxt time gals... probably not the one in Japan, but the one in States. HHahhaa.. I was so much looking forward to sitting those heart stopping, holding your breath rides, but the rides in Disneyland were more for kids than adults.

We went to many temples.. and the unforgettable one is the big one with different stops for different kinds of wishes. Marriages, family, wealth and properity, luck.. blah blah.

The most unforgettable was the visit to Mt Fuji. The weather there was probably only 5 degrees and you can imagine standing above the clouds, with the cold wind blowing against your face. Simply awesome!! I felt like i was standing at the top of the world with all the trees and hills beneath my feet. The view just took my breath away.. I've never seen anything like this in my life before.

I've posted a few of my photos in Friendster already. Probably will post a few more here also.

2007-11-02T01:03:00.000+08:00

Hiya ppl, it has been quite sometime since I last update this blog.

Basically, everything is still the same. Nth much exciting happening ard me. hahha.

I'll be leaving for Japan in a few hrs time... yippe!! so happi!!!

I'm joinin 2 other frenz and a while group of 25 other ppl on this journey. I have been looking forward to it since a few mths ago. hahaha

I've onli had less than 5 hrs of sleep for the past 36 hrs. Why? Coz I've been up watching some taiwanese idol drama. Cool man! My colleague lend me her cds for 'Why Why Love'. So nice! so touching... i spent the whole nite crying. hahaha. The other one I watched is 'Devil beside you'. Both dramas have the same lead actor and actress. Mike He and Rainie Yang.. They simply look so compatible. Mike He is so handsome!! hahhaa...

Below is another of Mike He's trailer to one of his newer drama 'Marry me!. Handsome huh? and sexy... lolz.

2007-09-08T17:07:00.000+08:00

hiya! Haven't blog for quite some time already.

Well, life is more or less the same as before. Working my ass off in the office.. haiz

Went out with few of my colleagues last nite. We had dinner at Killiney Coffe Shop near my office and then followed by a chill out session at a pub nxt to the coffee shop.

I had fun in the pub.. making new frens (they're my colleague's bf and fren) and playing card games and dice with them. hhaha..so fun. But i had too much of booze and was already feeling it in my blood. Getting drunk and tipsy is not something i like to be seen it. So before i knock out unconscious i was seen dunking 5 -6 cups of water down my stomach. hehehe.. and the end result was visits to the toilet nearly 4 times in less than an hr.

Shared a cab with 3 other colleagues as the other guy had already knock out unconscious and left earlier than us. I forgot to pay the toilet a visit and therefore spent the nxt 20 mins trying to keep my bladder from bursting.

Came home in the wee hrs and after a shower went straight to bed. Feeling so tired, haiz, been so stressed at work. Always having told last min that some cases are urgent.. idiotic ppl who promised their clients, without using their mind. damnit. Nearly broke down in office. sianz... haiz.

But this wk had been fun except for those irritating ppl. Went Sentosa on Wed for our offsite 'Strategic Meeting'. Hahaha... I felt that it was more of a fun course than a meeting. We had our meeting at one of the bigger rooms at Amara Sanctuary Resort. The food was great.. and the 'host' was quite impressed at how Singaporeans are being able to wolfed down so many meals a day. Know why? Because we were provided a good spread consisting: buffet breakfast - buffet break - buffet lunch - buffet tea break. All these in 9hrs... hahaha. i felt so bloated during the breakfast and couldn't eat until lunch... then when i saw my colleagues eating during the tea time, i felt like vomiting, even though those pastries really looked so yummy.

i missed schooling days.. at least i'm always happy spending time with my frenz, without idiotic ppl telling me what to do and arguing when you explain things to them. The last thing i need is for ppl who are unappreciative of us and also doubting what i say. I really don't understand, if my words really weigh so little, then why in the 1st place they want to ask me? Probably they think that my number is a hotline.. dial free line.

sianz...

2007-07-28T14:18:00.000+08:00

hmm, haven't been blogging recently.

Well, basically life is still abt the same as before. Except that sometimes I'm busy like a bee in the office. Sometimes making mistakes here and there... then feel demoralise and then, trying to strive hard again...

Finally its wkend again... it feels like ages since i last had a real getaway. haizz...

Last wk at office was a real disaster. Things happen here and there. Beginning of the wk is always so busy. My office phone is becoming like a helpdesk... sometimes ringing non-stop all day. Or else, it'll ring less than 10times a day. How funny.

Last wk I attended the funeral of my colleague's mom. My colleague is only 1 year younger then me. Haiz.. sad story. Breaks my heart to see her in such pain. Afterall, she's still considered a young girl. she's only doing a part time degree in sch. So young, and yet such things happen to her. She must be heart broken. Lost... and certainly, helpless.

She'll be coming back to office nxt wk. Hopefully we can cheer her up a little... but we all know its difficult. Afterall, what we can do is also limited. I guess I can offer to have dinner with her more often. haizz... this is an awkward situation. Coz any words of comfort may not necessarily be felt by her. Afterall, we're not her. haiz..

We only realise what we have been missing until it is gone. This... is often a mistake. BIG mistake...

Anyway, last Wednesday was my mom's birthday. I went to shop for a gift for her during lunch time. Bought her a diamond ring that costs $701, however, she exchanged the gift for a pendant. haaha.. so fickle minded.. she was the one who said she wanted a ring. Nevermind... but her pendant costs $1000++, so in the end, she top it up herself. Sorrie mom, ur kid here is not earning big bucks... I'll buy u a bigger one nxt time i get my bonus. Muahahahah...

Okies.. I'll be going to NUS later for a play performance by this church. Going with my boss and 2 other colleagues. Hahhaha.. funny group huh?

Happy wkend everybody!! =)

2007-06-16T23:20:00.000+08:00

haaha.. I was out early on Friday.. hurray, it was so long since i left the office with my bag.. and it was still sunny.

My company has this "Live your Life" program.. where staff could go off at 1pm, for one day every mth. Cool huh? I simply lurv it.. heehe

I went off at 1pm on Friday.. went to the salon. Got my hair cut and done... and went to Bugis and waited for the gals to arrive.

We had dinner at Swensens.. its been a long time since we last had dinner thr.. we had ice cream too! yummy.. Stick Chewy chocolate.. and mango madness..

During dinner, I heard some news abt one of their poly friend.. funny as they tried to matchmake us. Can't imagine too...but I guess they are right, I have the tendency to push ppl away when they come too close. Guess i always have a barrier or protective shield ard myself..

We went to the arcade to kill time. Haaha.. funnny huh? Ppl at our age still go to the arcade. But nevermind abt the stares.. we still enjoyed ourselves. Jin and Dot went to play the 'shoot the baddies' game.. while I was screaming and shouting my head off. Telling them to shield themselves from the bullets and bombs.. hahaa! Den we played some funny hit the machine game.. and also the game where we had to spot the difference. Had fun!

Miss the good old days man... and I'm looking forward to Oct when we'll make our trip to Australia. Or maybe if its just the 3 of us.. we chld go somewhr else. heehe...

Its time to party! =)

2007-05-27T18:10:00.000+08:00

Here are some of the photos we took when we went over to Amanda's bf's house for a nite of partying few wks ago. We had a few outrageous poses due to the high lvl of alchohol lvl in our blood. haaha...

2007-05-27T17:53:00.000+08:00

Hiya gals... guess you all know that the once a yr GSS (Great Singapore Sale) is now on!! Huraayy!!!

Haaha, it officially started last Friday 25th May, and I've met up with the gals after work, head down to hit the stores. I bought 2 tops, 2 lingerie and a pair of slippers. heehe...

We walked till we drop.. the shops were so crowded. Mostly with females.. rummaging all the clothes and trying on all the shoes.

Went down to Vivo with my dad yesterday, supposely to look at my elder bro's architecture display. But guess he is only helping them out... hahaa. We went to Giant to shop for stuff to eat. I passed by this shop, and I saw my favourite Salvatore Ferragamo perfume!! All 3 of them also smelt so heavenly!! hahaha...

My mom's coming home tonite after spending more then 2wks enjoying her holiday at US and Canada. Haaha... gd for her!

2007-05-13T00:44:00.000+08:00

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2007-04-29T00:28:00.000+08:00

I'm still waiting for Hui to send me alot of the photos. So meanwhile pls be patient. haahahaa...

2007-04-25T12:39:00.000+08:00

2007-04-25T12:24:00.000+08:00

2007-04-25T11:47:00.000+08:00

Hi frenz... these are the photos I took during the graduation, trip to Tioman, and during Jess's weddings. heehe..

2007-04-17T22:46:00.000+08:00

Hurray!! Our convocation is finally over... and I've never been so proud of myself before. It has marked the end of my university days. My university days hasn't been very smooth... it has filled with sadness and anger. But now, I feel that I'm a brand, new whole me. I feel differently, and hopefully, will act differently (in a better way).

Last Friday was my convocation, there were many ppl who attended this very important ceremony. I was kinda late and to only find that I've forgotten abt my motarboard. Many many graduates and their family have already crowded outside the main hall entrance. I rushed over to get registered... to only find another friend of mine standing behind me. Hahha.. she too, was late! After registering, we went to this rm to get help to get dressed. I saw many familiar faces, once again, felt so comfortable with these ppl, whom names I may not know.

After getting help with the graduation gown, i went to find my friends and together went to find out seats. I was sittig there feeling very confortable, until this guy came and sat nxt to me. Haaha.. we gals have gave him a nickname "Doodo bird", coz often, we see him walking ard in sch eating a banana. lolz... Anyway, it was awhile later, when the staff came up to me and asked for my seat number and my name card. i showed her, only to discover that I have taken the wrong seat!

*paiseh*

I was told that my seat is actually at the other end of the hall.. faintz. Why can't they label the seats clearly. I mean, its so confusing.. we have seats that are a1, B2, C3.. and seats that are labelled as AA1, BB2 and CC3. Obviously we'll get it wrong ya? Anyway, I made my way to the other side of the hall.

We waited for the rest of the ppl to get settled in... and with the VIPs...

Graduates from other courses, diploma holders... blah blah.... I waited until my bum was getting so stiff... my course is the last course. haizz.. but luckily, I'm one of the 1st few to get on the stage to receive the cert and folder. Haaha... phew. From the booklet that was handled to everyone, I saw from the list that there aint many 2nd class honours students.. either tt, or the rest didn;t turn up for the convocation. Nevertheless, I still consider myself to be very lucky and blessed. =)

I took many photos... with my parents and friends. My mom even bought me a bouquet of flowers! heehe... I've never been so happy and yet tired. The other day when I was also this happy, was the day when I got to know my results when I checked thru the student portal. haaha.

But a pity tt gramma didnt turn up for the convocation, as she was in one of her 'moods' again.

After convocation, I went hm to rest and to pack my bag for our Tioman trip. I went thr with Hui... we both had a great time there. The sun, sand and sea... I really lurv the place. Its back to the nature... we even saw a mini waterfall. Its my 1st time swimming in the waterfall!! I was so excited. hahaa... even though was a little sunburnt. But we were happy! we even discovered this part of the island that is even betta den any other parts of the island. Its called the Juara Beach, located on the east side of Tioman Island. Nxt time, we'll visit this place instead.

During our trip, we also went to Reggis Island, where sharks have known to appear. I was kinda hesitant.. but I still went down nevertheless. I saw fishes that looked like mini swordfish, it scared the hell outta me. Haaha,.. I was splashing the water so that they'll keep a distance away from me. But Hui scolded me, coz it may make them attack me instead. Oops.. After getting on the boat, the tour guide told us that there was a mini shark that was just behind our butts!! Hearing this, it really freaked me out. One of our fella mates even swam round the island without her fins and life jacket! Our fella mates included a couple (husband frm s'pore, wife from Thai), a guy from Holland, 2 ladies frm France and Spain. Cool huh?

I'll upload the photos soon...

I am happy now... (except tt I've accidentally broke my specs while I was in Tioman, blame it on my clumsy fingers..)

Oh, and by the way, I got myself a new job.. Hopefully everything will be fine this time. I'll be starting on this new job on 2nd May, same time with Hui. I was telling her we shld compete to see who can stay longer on this job. haaha... its a kinda a gd competition eh?

2007-04-06T23:38:00.000+08:00

There was sth wrong with the router at home, and hence I wasn;t being able to check my email for the past few days.

I open my mail box, and surprisingly, I received an email from the person at the agency, telling me that I have another appt with the lady from HR. Okies.. so I'm in for another round of interview.

*Thank god.. =)*

okies.. I'm praying very hard, counting my lucky stars.. and also hoping to being able to psycho them to select me. Hopefully they'll see me as a potential individual whom will help benefit the company. Haaha.. who am I kidding rite? Lolz..

*Haizzz*

Had a long talk with my immediate boss yesterday.. I stayed back till 8pm in the office (its okie, as long as I have OT to claim. hee!) We talked abt my future, if I wishes to learn other stuff.. Well, I gave her my suggestions and perspectives, not knowing whether it'll get into her head. Hopefully it does. I really hate the way things are being done in the company. It is too rigid, and now tt she talked to me, mainly because one of my colleague had already tendered her resignation. SEE!! These thick-headed ppl often do things the very last min. All along I've been hinting and outwardly potesting that I'm not contented to just doing what I do currently. I want MORE! Nobody cares... nobody listens to me!! =(

Now that they are threatened by this sudden departure of my colleague, they have to find someone suitable to fill her place. Hence in conclusion, I'm the backup plan. Hey! I'm not here to fill in somebody's shoe and to be only considered as a last choice... sheesh! I'm so pissed with them... I don't know what to say except to smile weakly. -_-|||

*sighh*

She asked if I'm feeling upset and angry recently.. well, of coz I said YES! haaha.. It is written ALL over my face. Come on man.. I'm here to learn, not to be kicked ard like a ball. And talking abt the qualifications, its not as if I don't have rite?

After spending 1hr sitting nxt to her and I nearly had cramps in my butt... conclusion??

I'm still an angry gal...

2007-04-06T23:29:00.001+08:00

Oh woww... I was surfing the net to kill time when i came across this blog. She's a fren of my fren.. and she posted this link in her blog, where we can find out what is the hidden meaning behind our names. COOLz!

Ta daa!!

Discover the hidden meaning in your name

Emily Fong
You are a philosophical, humanitarian and noble individual with a strong sense of self enabling you to maintain your poise and perspective at all times. Possessing broad vision and a strong intellect you can create or comprehend new concepts with ease. You live your life without excess and are respected by others for your courage, kindness and patience. A lover of nature and seeker of knowledge and truth. You can send this to a friend by filling out the form below. Note the fields in bold are required.

So.. how true is this? hmm... i always thought I am impatient..Perhaps only impatient towards my family. How is this? haaha.

Hence I decided to try out other names to see how true this is...

jinny carag
Idealistic, sensitive and emotional you appreciate beauty and need to have a harmonious environment. You are a dependable and conscientious worker and attract material rewards without too much effort. However your altruistic nature is one of giving and service to others with a desire to make the world a better place and you work towards this end. Your affectionate, sincere and understanding manner means that you are much loved.

heehe... how abt this one?

Dorothy Koh
Reliable, intelligent and skillful you like to experiment and apply your abilities to productive projects. Being cautious and well disciplined you think things through carefully before taking action. Appreciating peace and beauty you need to have harmony in your life and enjoy relaxing times alone. Your charm, honesty and sense of fair play ensure that you are admired by all who know you.

Well.. I did a couple more tests on my parents and my bros. It seemed to me that both my bros have the same result.. funny!

2007-03-28T23:28:00.001+08:00

Ha! Saw this on jin's blog.. i tot it was kinda interesting, so decided to give it a try too!! heehe...

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2007-03-26T21:11:00.000+08:00

Oh God... My throat is killing me. For the past few wks I've been coughing non-stop, and it has gotten worse recently..

Went to see the doc again after work today... I have been voice-less for the past wk. Trying my best to speak up without having to cough in the midst of a sentence. I have problems hearing too, due to the swelling of my tonsils.. hence i've became so handicapped over these few wks. I simply hate this feeling. It really irritated me as I can't speak up!!!

Went to collect my graduation gown on sat, was irritated by how the way they worked. 5 ppl standing at the reception counter but only 1 lady was attending to whomever was seated at the counter. i was waiting impatiently after they served this guy infront of me. After sitting down, they began asking a series of qns like "which degree are you from?" "wat class honours?" blah blah. I have already told the lady.. and she spent like 5mins trying to search for my name... and made me repeat wat I've told her again. Wat kinda service is tt? hmmm...

Went for facial again after the collection... tried to control my cough while the beautician did her usual routine of cleaning and scrubbing.. and squeezing my face... and I fell asleep... as usual. Lolz..

Natas travel fair last sat with jin and dot, collected many fliers and info abt Australia. After tt we went to this indonesian restaurant for dinner.. their catfish was quite nice.. except tt all of it is fried.. and the chilli is powerful, although I only had a teeny weeny bit. After dinner we went to arab street.. the gals had sheesha (how do u spell it?)... I wanted too also.. but I was coughin madly. haaha..

Okies.. hopefully the medicine this time round will fully cure me... haiz

2007-03-18T12:04:00.000+08:00

Hiya... Its been a long time since I lasy blogged. Haaha.. wondering what I've been up to?

Okies.. for the last few wkends in Feb, I've been madly catching up on the Taiwan drama "Hana Kimi" on YouTube. Hence, I have finished watching all the epoisodes, even b4 Channel U has aired the last few episodes. This is quite a nice show.. funny and romantic. Lolz.. Which leaves room for imagination. I even bought the soundtrack for this show. Nice huh...

This is one of the moments I like... heehe. Wu Zun is cute in this show. Nice OST too!

After "Hana Kimi", Taiwan will be airing this new show called "Re Qing Zhong Xia". It seems funny too!

Last wkend, I attended a wedding dinner. My fren from uni was getting married! How exciting. This is my 1st time attending a wedding dinner without my parents. My fren looked very pretty in her gown... haaha. It was unimaginable. I mean, frenz around me getting married and getting settled so early. Haaha. And I was desperately searching for a dress to attend the dinner.

This wkend, I am stucked at hm, coz I am down with tonsilitis (AGAIN!!) and having fever and cough. snorez... what a boring wkend huh? I hate to waste my wkend at hm. Supposedly to meet Shirley... but cancelled it last min. Sheesh!

Nxt wkend, I'll be dropping by Broadway Studio to pick up my graduation gown and mortaboard, and going for facial after tt. Hopefully to look at my best during the convocation. Yup.. by the way, my convocation will be held in sch, on 13th April..(FRIDAY THE 13TH!!). haaha.. I really hope tt I won't trip over my own feet and fall flat on my face. I wonder if I will cry.. hmmm. As u all know, it has been a rough period for me during my days in uni. haiz.. ok, lets not talk abt it.

Following tt, we'll be going down to CCK to pray to my grandpa... before proceeding to somewhr (either Paramount Hotel or Crystal Jade at Vivo City) for a feast. My mom was suggesting Vivo coz she hasn't step foot thr! haaha.. so 'sua gu'. At least I've been thr once. Lolz...

2007-01-21T02:12:00.000+08:00

Yeah man.. I lurv this song! muahhahaa... and its a remix of 'Qian Li Zhi Wai' + 'Fai Ru Xue'. Jay sounds so diff at the start of the song, seems tt his vocal has improved a little. Nice! =)

2007-01-16T23:02:00.000+08:00

Hi all.. think it has been quite some time I last blog. Have been quite busy... haaha.. leading a very fulfilling life. Hmm.. well not quite, if your talking abt time for some personal space.

Work is busy... and is getting heavier as I've taken over some1's portfolio. I think the work load is crashing on me... I'm beginning to feel the strain. arghhh... Left office at 8pm, it was nearly 12hrs in the office. haizz...

I pray tt I will have my dream job soon. I want sth more challenging... but not so manual and hands-on like what I'm doing now. I'm planning to further my studies, but duno when I'm gona do tt la.

I miss sch days... so care-free (cept during exam time). I wish I can take a time shuttle to go back in time... when I had so much fun "playing" in sch. My cca... my dear frenz, Our laughter, our tears... our sweat. haahaaha!!

Those were the days tt I had so much fun... I miss being a kid... Grown-ups always have so much problems to worry abt. Abt our jobs, our family, money not enuff, time not enuff.. blah blah.

Just todae, I nearly choked over my own saliva. This auntie at the reception counter (a place whr I pick up my daily in-coming materials from other companies), asked me so mani qns...

Auntie: Hello! Are u new isit?
Me: yes, taking over **'s portfolio, she's now over at *-*
Auntie: yes I know
Auntie: how old are u?
Me: how old do i look?
Auntie: twenty plus?
Me: twenty how mani plus? (hahaha)
Auntie: 20? 21?
Me: (wondering if I look like a kid...) ahh... 23 la
Auntie: oh.. same age as my son!

blah blah... 5 mins later

auntie: so u graduate frm poly?
me: no I went to a jc
auntie: jc? den u just came here after ur jc?
me: no la... I went to uni lor
auntie: oh... wahhh..
me: private uni la
auntie: gd also mah
me: *- speechless -*
Me: i see
auntie: so do u help out in housework? do u do the dishes when u finish ur food? do u ...??
me: ya.. i'll help out when I have to
auntie: so u wash the dishes la??
me: err... I have a maid at hm
auntie: wah.... so rich huh?!
me: oh she's to take care of my gramma
auntie: orhh...

Faintz... I duno how come all of a sudden this auntie is so interested in me ah.. trying to interview gals to be her future daughter-in-law or wat? Frankly speaking ah, there are many females over at my side tt I think the guys are on the verge to be converted into homosexuals. hahaha.. considering the fact tt many are WOMEN (i.e aunties). hahahhha... So everywhr we ladies bitch alot... tok loudly, luff loudly... no image at all.

Sianz... I feel so tired. This job really tires me. Physically and mentally. Physically coz I always havta carry the files here and thr... walk mani times to the cabinet to look for the files. arghhh

I can imagine myself to become a crazy women on fridae.. coz my coverer will be on leave.. which makes me become a SUPER-MAD WOMAN doing a 3 persons job.

SWEET!!!

Its party time...

=(

2006-12-17T16:09:00.000+08:00

These are the presents they gave me... but i didn't have the time to take picutres of all the presents...

We went to Newton for dinner after the celebration. Haaha.. they were all yelling at me coz I was still working in the office. So i had to return last sunday to complete my work and to clear my stuff. We ordered stingrays, sotongs, prawn mee, soup, chicken wings... yummy!!

They gave me this polaroid camera!! I lurv this camera man! Can view the photos instantly and the pictures it takes are quite complimenting. heehe.. which means tt everyone will look nice in it. Cool huh?

A scarf, a box and a lipstick. Haaha.. M told me tt i can makeup myself sometimes. Funny.. do i look too plain? hmm... okies, i'm a plain jane. haaha... tts normal mah. I want to be just a normal ME.

Da Jie made this box specially for me.. haaha, she's quite a hands-on person. She knows how to make many stuff. But this box looks like a ciagrette box rite? I use it as a card holder to store my polaroid pictures.

They all gave me a nickname "Winne the Pooh". Faintz... This is my birthday card. They even used a pooh wrapper. aiyoz... Everything revolves ard the theme "pooh and friends". haaha

I still have a set of cuff-links and a necklace with complements from SCB. A star necklace from dear Eleen... a sounevoir from this intern... and also, lotsa lurv from all my OL colleagues. hurray!! =)

2006-12-17T15:00:00.000+08:00

My last day in SCB was a memorable one. Haaha... it was my last day.. and they also celebrated my birthday for me.

My desk... haaha. Superb untidy isin't? Can't help it la.. I just cleared it the day before.. and by the next day, its messy again!

Haaha... They celebrated my farewell in Fish & Co.. The funny thing is I didn't know why so many ppl turned out for the lunch. Some didn't even know who I am. snorez... but I got a free lunch! heehe...

This is my big boss... Haaha.. didn't know how come she know tt I was trying to take a picture of her. And she happily posed for it. heehe...

Haaha!! Can't imagine Eleen ordered this fish! It looks like a dish from the 10 course wedding dinner menu! lolz... and she had a hard time polishing this fish. It looks huge doesn't it? But doesn't seemt o have much meat on it though..

This is my birthday cake.. Its chocolate! I lurv it.. but they made me use my mouth to pick out the candle holder, which they pushed into the cake. I was so afraid tt Da Jie (who was holding the cake) may smash it in my face!

The tongue movement... haaha. Don't think otherwise pls...

he's the youngest male colleague at work...
=)

haaha... i look like a kiddo ard them

The roses... lolz

My self taken portrait.. haaha, coz i was kinda frustrated with them for taking ugly pictures of me. So i took a picture by myself.

She's my best fren in SCB. She calls herself my "Da Ai" which means big lurv. muaahaha.. she lurvs to hit my butt. She lurvs to disturb me. Haiz.. I miss her disturbance. =X

2006-12-17T14:53:00.000+08:00

Yupz.. I have started on my new job, in a new environment, with new colleagues. Haizz.. my 1st wk at work sucks big time! My heart seemed to be beating very fast... and I need to wear a digital watch to work to remind me that i have to do different things at different time.

9, 10, 11, 12, 1pm have to collect the faxes and distribute it. This already took me about 20minutes (minimum). But this is not just my portfolio!

At 945, 12.45 and 3.45pm I have to pack the things ready for the courier man to send it to another office.

And sometimes I can walk out to the main door to collect reports sent by the courierman. Idiotic. That explains why I'm so tired by the time i reach hm.

Faintz... I have to keep reminding myself of the times I have to do these things.. and its making me bonkas. My chair doesn't have the chanced to be warmed up by my butt.. coz I keep walking ard and running ard doing all kinda stupid stuff.

I miss my ex-colleagues... haiz. Not tt my present colleague aint nice.. but sometimes i feel left out coz they maybe so busy until they're skipping lunch, or lunching in. So.. on wednesday I was having lunch alone. so pathetic huh?

I pray i'll be able to move out of this horrible place asap.

I've to report early to work tml coz my mentor will be on half day to attend a course. So... al the best to me huh? I hope I won't mess things up. Haiz...

2006-12-03T02:36:00.000+08:00

This coming week is my last week wid SCB... went for dinner with my colleagues. Discussed with them.. they're all sad that i'm leaving. But since they can;t promise me anything, so i shld move on rite? I'll be back when the time is ripe. haaha

more photos from D&D...

Haaha.. she look darn sultry huh? Lolz... Funny pose! I'll miss her laughter... coz its quite horrendous. =X

She's the nicest lady in the office. i do work for her very willingly.. heehe. So sad to leave her.. and feel so paiseh. My departure actually caused her to be so stressed up. Sorry dear M... haiz. I will miss u asking me 'how're u today? everything ok?' haaha...

Act cute act cute time...

Did they enter the wrong hall? Hahaa.. nope! They're all here vieing for the best dressed table. lolz... wayang man!

Woww!! This lady here really know how to flaunt her assets huh!? haahaha...

Yikes! Even the gladiators are here for the yearly event.. haaha.. they look happy posing with their colourful 'swords'.

2006-11-25T14:49:00.000+08:00

hiya! Went to company's D&D last nite and had so much fun! The MC was funny and I choked on my dessert when he was making a joke. haaha...

here are the photos.. i posed as a jap gal in kimono. It's my 1st time dressing up.. and gosh! Others also dressed up wildly for the annual event held at S'pore suntec convention hall. lolz...

Angles from heaven... haaha

Pretty babes... (coz i'm not talking abt myself... you've got eyes to see for yourself rite? lolz...)

My colleagues... oh god! I see gold chest hair and red horns!... muaahhaha!!

eh, wat are u2 trying to do? lolz =)
those mostaches tickled!!

ok... there are more pictures uploaded when i've received them. A pity my cam was still under repair, or i would have gone round the hall asking strangers to pose for my cam. It was darn hilarious, you should have seen it! And those who vie for the best dressed tables were parading and performing on stage. FUNNY!! The theme for the D&D was "Colours".. hence tt explained our dressing. Ppl dressing up as Dowager Ci xi, Shanghai nite, Korean costumes, Mexican costumes... even retro funky coloured wigs and masks!

I went home with 2 door gifts coz 2 of the trainees who were suppose to sit with us went to sit with another table instead. heehe... And there were lotsa food left coz instead of havin 10 ppl to fill the table, we only had 5! faintz...

happy happy...

2006-11-22T22:44:00.000+08:00

Hiya everybody... miss me? haaha... updates updates...

well, Im using my own laptop now. YoOOo0o0o...! My mom ask my elder bro to buy 1 so tt i can use, and also share wid de rest of de family. Not bad la... coz the laptop is in my rm now. HAAHAHAHA!! Huge screen.. but thick.. hmm. what do u expect? 2cm thin? wait long long long....

hmm... got an offer from another place. haiz... im tinking if i shld switch. Everday tink until headache... kns! there are pros and cons of switching la. But i'm hesitatant coz i like my colleagues, my boss... though thr are a few i hate la. but overall everybody is nice. Love them to bits... haiz. Why why why? gimme sth i wan lei...!! tian ah....

This friday going company's dinner & dance.. haahaha. Funny... tot i can wear sth nice.. who knows, da jie, said we'll be dressing up. Haaha.. so end up i'll wear Hanbok to D&D on friday. funny... guess it'll be diff from the D&D in the television shows.

celebrated Dot's and Jin's 22nd birthday,.. haaha, time flies. Funny... Jin brought a cam widout batt! it died halfway.. so we ended up using hps to take photos. snorezz

Met our sec sch mate in Kopi club... haaha... told jin not to look over already. and instead, she end up STARING at the other table. so of coz, she being so prominent... our sec sch classmate saw us la! snorez... quite surprise.. he's doing well in designing. not bad! So proud of him, he was selected to go to Greece. Not bad huh.. as compared to his sec sch days...

Ok.. it's gona be yr end again.. very soon, it'll be christmas, den chi new yr. Oh and b4 all these, it'll be my birthday la.. of coz. Lolz...

Time flies flies flies.... we're all growing old.

=(

2006-11-12T23:52:00.000+08:00

aiyoz... so many ppl celebrating birthday this month. 2 in my family, 2 of my best friends and 2 at work. faintz... and i've been stuffing cake into my mouth everywk in the month of November! haahaha...

Last wk was Gramma's birthday.. we went Pariss International at Marina Sq for lunch. I didn;t eat alot, but felt so bloated after that. Everyone else too were bloated.. so we cut the cake and had sweet soup (Tian Tang) for dinner. Funny huh? I had 4 shishamo.. it was quite nice, but the eggs in it was horrible.. i was scooping away the eggs and made a horrible mess on my plate. haaha.. My eldest aunt bought 90 small eggs (wat do u call them in english??). It was superb high in cholestrol! My cousin had 10... aiyoz..

Yest was daddy's birthday.. as usual, he and my mom went for their candle light dinner. They went to this China Meridien hotel... Daddy said the ambience was quite good. And while he was having his candle light dinner, my elder bro brought chilli crabs, deer meat, yummy tofu from the zicha stall. Wat a sumptous dinner.. haaha, coz he tot daddy was going to celebrate at hm. The crab was huge... it had a whole lot of high cholestrol eggs too!

haaha.. i'm going to my company's D&D.. D&D stands for Dinner and Dance la. No idea what to wear.. 1 colleague was suggesting we wear old sch uniforms. Oh manz... unlike last yr's D&D, its going to be held at Suntec convention hall this yr. Faintz.. last yr was at Westin i think. haaha... I don't relive my JC graduation nite nitemare again. I looked like a MammaSan... lolz. Wat a joke!

Needa join the gym soon... not going to gain more weight anymore.

Went to east coast park with S and M. They're my pri sch frenz.. haaha, so fun! Looking at S's poked nipples.. I was trying so hard not to stare... LOLz... anyway, the sun was so hot till M got a burnt shoulder.. and my arms were a little darker. But everything was so fun... maybe i shld make it a routine to blade every wkend. Came hm and slept like a log...

This coming thurs is D and H's birthday.. think i'll buy them a cake to celebrate in office. And Jin and Dot will be celebrating theirs early on sat.

birthday, birthday and MORE birthdays... lolz. It is the cakes tt are freaking me out. I lurv cakes.. but its too much this time round. Today is only 12 Nov.. and i already had 3 cakes!

maybe we can think of something new.. instead of cutting cakes, maybe we can cut a bun or.. ice cream cake! hmmm...

2006-11-04T01:14:00.000+08:00

Oh god... i really miss studying life MINUS the exam part. haiz... everybody seemed so distant nowadays. I only hang out with my 2 best frenz and reserve most of my fridays with my colleagues. Life at work is superb boring... but thank god, I have wonderful and fun colleagues. Phew...

The gd news is that they're extending my stay till early January... hence I still have ard 2mths. Till den... i'll still carry on look for jobs. Well, i really hate to leave... but i guess thr really isnt a place for me. haiz.. perhaps i'll ask them during late December (only if i'm still out of job) haaha...

tired... i even 'ta bao' work hm.. actualli i can manage my work load la, but i just though of finishing it quickly, just to set aside extra time if they want to change stuff last min. yap... i always wonder how is my work performance... I wonder how they'll rate me. Gd? bad? average? or its way below average? haiz...

I just received this project (and tts y im bringing work hm to do)... and its the 1st time I'm managing a project all by myself. It doesn't only involve my line manager.. but also another manager from another dept... tts y im so stressed. I hope i can do a gd job and leave a gd impression. =(

Stupid bitch ask me to help her feed A3 size paper at the printer.. stupid. why can't she walk over and do it herself? I'm not oblidged to help her lor... so i told her directly in the face that...

bitch: can u help me pls...?
me: help u wat?
bitch: sorry... can u help me to feed the A3 size paper?
me: at the colour printer?
bitch: ya...
me: starting to frown (i really very bu shuang!)
me: i think there isn't anybody printing at this time u know?
bitch: oh...
bitch: oh its ok.. thanx thanx

bloody hell... it was ard 6pm when she ask if i can help her feed the bloody paper. Mind u.. our working hrs are till 5.30pm every fridays. So u can actually imagine there aint many souls in the office already... and its FRIDAY! hello... seldom ppl will stay till off working hrs to print their stuff. I HATE HER!! i am seriously irritated by her... irritated by her EVERYTHING!

2006-10-21T15:29:00.000+08:00

haahaha... im so desperate tt i even took my office lappy back home to use. haaha.. funny.

yest went to my colleague's (da jie) hse for steamboat dinner.. alot of left overs. While eating, one of my colleague keep saying funny things and made me luff till i nearly cried and had face cramps. haaha...and they story they made up regarding me and this other guy (Mr G) who is single in the office is spreading! =( I hope such things won't go round the whole office.. very paiseh one lei. They keep wanting to matchmake me and him 2gether.. so awkward. And the gals are also saying why another guy (Mr N) who is married, has so much things to say to me.. FAINTZ!!? Wah piangz.. why always link me up to these rumours.. haiyoz. I jump into the yellow river also cannot wash away these rumours. jialat man!

After dinner we stayed back to play majong... i tot we were going to play till morning. ha.. but we stopped at 2plus. everybody was feeling so sleepy... haaha. Kev drove us back home..cool!

i'll be on leave till nxt thurs.. so meanwhile i'll see what i can do at hm. I'm going to be out of job soon. Last day at SCB will be on 10Nov. haizz... i'll miss every1.. sianz.. havta readapt to new environment, new colleagues, new lunch khakis...everything new!

I'll be going to my aunt's hse for dinner later... long time didnt see her already. She's my aunt from my mom's side. Probably haven't seen her for more than half a yr already... =(

going out with the gals tml... hurray! are we going for a movie or singing? haaha... known them for so long.. almost a decade.. still haven't gone singing with them. can't imagine wat jin will do... lolz

HAPPY DEEPAVALI!!

2006-10-12T10:13:00.000+08:00

Oh ya man…I’m in the office now… feeling rather bored. Haaha.. today is Thursday!! HURRAAYYY!!!… and tml is Friday and TA DAA! The week end is here again…I try not to pay too much attention to that “pretty gal” in the office.. rather, I have start calling her ‘the bitch at work’ instead. Lolz.. she’s sick today.. but still coming in to work. Wahh! So darn hardworking eh? Who cares?!

Anyway… I was burning from embarrassment yest at lunch. Haizz.. I duno why they start bombarding me with weird questions like “how do u find the latest news abt North Korea? In what way do u think it will help their economy?” Huh…?! Since when I have to take International Business out of classroom and to apply it in office? Faintz… another guy asked “so.. who, in your opinion, is gd looking in the office?” WHATT?!! I nearly died and flew to heaven. Haiyoz.. don’t ask me such questions la.. so paiseh lei!! Esp when the rest were quiet and looking at me.. half expecting me to answer his question. Errmm… I kept fidgeting. What to do? “How abt who u think is suitable and fits ur expectation and u can bring home to show ur parents?” WHAT!!? Faintz faintz

And my fren was warning me abt flings in the office.. pls lor, I don’t flirt! Just look at my face… I’m the blurest person u can find in the office. I think he has to observe his behaviour… not me lor. Esp when he’s already married. Snorez…
I am happy the way I am now… I won’t do anything stupid to wreck and create havoc in my life. This is crazy… so CRAZY! It just doesn’t make sense.. duhz. Another gal was asking.. “how come he always come and disturb u ah?” errmmm… What shld be the politically right ans? I answered “becoz I am blur and gd to bully” haaha…

2006-10-01T17:36:00.000+08:00

haaha... alrites man! i admit i'm one blur sotong la. Pls don't remind me and do more damage that i alread had. lolz...

went out wid jin and dot.. had so much fun with them! lolz... me n dot were trying to scare jin at the shopping centre Icon. Lolx.. cox we had to climb down the stairs, so it was a perfect spot.. haaha, and jin screamed wid her superb high pitch "eiihh!" muaahhaa..left me n dot luffing ike mad. !st time we had a cheap dinner together.. haaha,not bad. We shld spend less on food manz... to help me save some $. I bought a dress and a red top... haaha, nowadays u can find many dresses at bugis village at quite a reasonable price. My dress costs $22.90.. affordable huh?

anyway... Hui was telling me abt this deal she sawsomewhr... backpack tripto europe for 21 days.. it costs US$1400+ excluding the air ticket.. hmmm. I was just tokin to my mom de other day.. and funny.. she readily agreed that i shld expose myself to such 'experience'. Lolz.. she's ready to sponser me.. but of coz.. i havta pay her back. Nth is free leh.. haaha

Well.. i haven found myself a perm job. haizz.. quite sad. I wonder if thr's something wrong wid my resume.. isit badly written? hmmm.... sianz. I'll be taking a few days leave on the wk of hari raya. haaha.. I'm not celebrating hari raya la... but i'm taking a few days to recharge myself.. and find some time to send my resume to more companies. I always feel so tired during the wkend.

why can't i just retire and do sth i like... i wan money!!! $$$$$

2006-09-23T15:10:00.000+08:00

faintz... i finally found sometime to blog. hey! work is very tiring u know... esp when i havta wait for my bro to come hm b4 i can use his lappy.. but no more now. haaha

hmmm...i wonder if i've eaten too much sotongs tt i've becoming more and more like one. haizz... i'm quite frustrated at myself during work. take yest for example. My supervisor told me to continue printing some stuff coz we've to deliver it personally over to someone at the battery rd branch later in the evening. And at the same time, i was given another assignment to create a powerpoint for this lady.. and was told this work is urgent. Ok.. happily, i started my work on the lappy... BUT!! also happily forgotten abt the printing!! arghhh... only after my supervisor came back 1 and half hrs later den i realised i totally forgotten abt it!! tian ahh....!! =(

supervisor: so hows the printing going on?
me: stare blankly at her.. *blink blink*
me" huh? wat printing?
supervisor: don't tell me ur only at the 2nd file
me: oh shit!! i forgot abt it!!
supervisor: huh!!? emily!! how can u do this?
me: sorry sorry!! *practically started being whiny*
supervisor: emily how can u do this to me?? aiyoz...
me: sorry sorry! i really forgotten abt it! sorry.. i didn't do this on purpose
supervisor: aiyoz.. wat if its amanda who asked u to print? den u'll be asking for a sack instead
me: 'tuo pok' lor
supervisor: aiyoz.. i wana cut ur pay le la
me: cannot!!!! my pay alreadi so little... if cut somemore den i'll havta survive on maggi alreadi! pls pls pls...
supervisor: i wana 'pls' and beg u instead.. pls don't do this the next time... pls pls.. i beg u la
me: sorry la... sorry!
supervisor: luckily the person at battery rd bracnh didnt call to bug me.. or else i duno wat to tell her also
me: den say its ur temp's fault lor

haiz... nearly strangled myself. how blur can i be? wah lao... so pissed with myself! how incorrigible! sianz. suppose to end work at 5.30pm on fridays... but! i stayed till 8pm tring to finish printing the papers... damnit man! and i'm still not done wid it. havta go back early on monday to finish it. the most frustrating thing is tt my lappy sucks big time.. and so does the printer. stupid lor.. always waste my time doing stupid things. e.g. the printer doesn't collate even when i've pressed the button on the lappy. so in the end wat did i do? separate a stack of 8 sets of 51 pages long paper. irritating!! arghhh....

and i stayed till 9.15pm on thurs.. also to find myself standing nxt to the printer. tian ahhh... can't they buy a better printer? sheesh! i spend 12hrs at work... can u imagine tt? and 12 hrs later.. i find myself back in the office again. wah!

i still haven't find myself a perm job lei... i'm i too slack? but everytime after work i feel so tired already! as for wkends.. sometimes i'm out.. sometimes i just don't feel like doing anything but to rest, watch tv and read gd storybk.

haiz.. tokin abt work. i was so angry wid this pretty gal in my office. i tot i nearly screamed at her! how gd and efficient can someone be when ur asking another temp for help? meaning... she herself is a temp.. and she's askin me for help! ok... u all can reason and judge this urself. Since she asked for my help.. it only explains tt she's very busy rite? so if she's real busy... den why isit she can leave the office so much earlier den me? it only goes to explain tt she can cope with it herself... so why ask for my help? i think sometimes i'm being too helpful already. correct or not ah? haizz... but i felt quite bad yest when trying to reject her. but after thinking over it... it was worth the reject. coz i stayed till 8pm! while she left at 7pm i think... eesh...

and.. this is the best part... when another lady was asking both of us abt our progress and how we feel. she rasied the issue of a pay increase. I agreed. But after serious thinking... i tot it was quite unfair. Wat did she mean she wants a pay increase? i felt it wasn't fair!

1stly: i came in much earlier den her
2ndly: i'm a graduate... and mind u.. 2nd upper class honours
3rdly: i was from business...
4thly: she's only a diploma holder
5thly: she was from hospitality!!

so...uhuh.. its for the others to judge la!

6thly: how deserving is she when she's always aksin another temp for help? shit lor...
7thly: even though i'm more blur at work.. i try to work as fast as possible. and until i can't handle so many things all at a time (hers.. and my supervisor's) den i'll throw things back to her. afterall.. its HER work... NOT mine.

god... pls grant me a gd perm job with reasonable pay and gd future prospects pls!! tian ah!

2006-08-20T22:13:00.000+08:00

hi!!... 1st wk at work was smooth for me... work was ok.. but BORING! ppl thr was friendly.. but yet i find tt they seemed restricted, not fun lei... =(

hmm.. spoke to one of my supervisors abt me looking for a perm position.. she said she'll help me check their intranet. so hopefully thr'll be gd news...

i'll be 'sitless' tml.. no work station for me. damn sad... haiz. Y do they always ask me to do powerpoint? haiz... i hate powerpoint! ask me do something else mah.. so boring.

BORING BORING BORING!!

i've asked one of them hows my performance so far... coz as u guys noe, my computer skills such so much! asking me to amend sth may take a long time. BUT! she said im quite fast, its gd... heehe. i'm pleased to hear tt too! hopefully my performance will keep up to their standards... den i'll be safe!

haiz... its monday again tml. sianz.. no la, i'm not suffering from monday blues. but thr's really no motivation for me wor. sad huh??

went for massage today... so shiok man! i even fell asleep... lolz. My mom was supposed to go wid my aunt, but she was down wid flu, so i accompany my mom instead. heehe

2006-08-09T23:59:00.000+08:00

hi ppl! finally found some time to blog.. heehe.. 1st of all, HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!! lolz... yeah i'm proud to be a s'pore citizen and also to be a singaporean. why not? just becoz we speak singlish doesn't mean tt we're tt bad u noe? we are a peaceful country.. making frenz with ppl from different race and religion. So tts a gd thing rite? racial harmony... haaha! unlike other countries with serious political riots... wars or even natural disasters. We shld consider ourselves to be lucky!

Okies... nxt up.. i'll be starting work tml. Nope.. it's not a perm or contract job. Its a TEMPORARY job.. meaning i'll be getting paid per hourly. =(.. sadded. haizz... so meanwhile, i'll still keep a lookout for other jobs. hopefully i'll be able to extend my work there. Oh.. i have not mention.. i'll be working at Standard Chatered Bank at Plaza by the park.. so ppl, feel free toask me out for lunch if ur nearby k? Hopefully the ppl at my work place will be easy to work with and to communicate with... *pray pray pray*

hey.. recently i have this urge to go on a holiday again. I keep wanting to go somewhr cooling so i get the chance to wear the windbreaker i bought when i was in China. haaha... hmmm.. i guess it'll be months before i can get to travel again. haiz... sianz la!! work work and nothing but work. haaha...

2006-07-28T18:15:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. i finally found time to search the webby to decipher my dreams... u know, i always have this dream tt my teeth are dropping. And whenever i wake up i'll reach to touch if my teeth are still in tact.. how weird rite?

Teeth represent the fidelity to self, the degree to which we support our decisions, respect our inner choices and remain true to what we love. Having your teeth harmed or removed reflects a compromise or decision which involved a deep and highly personal cost. False, loose or crumbling teeth reflect stresses, problems and difficulties at work. For a woman, to dream of a tooth loss and severe gum bleeding denotes that she is involved into an abusive relationship. Seeing healthy white teeth in the dream indicates that you have much personal freedom.

TEETH
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Falling out; means that you may have an upsetting experience with someone or something. Or, simply put, unpleasant news.
To have your teeth cleaned or brushing your teeth; you have to fight for what is yours.
Admiring; good news is coming.
Toothless; Powerlessness over progressing.

Toothless
To dream that you are toothless, signifies your inability to reach your goals and advance toward your interests. Gloom and ill health will be part of your setbacks

teeth dreams
"My Teeth Are Falling"
Dreams that your teeth are falling out are the most common dreams we here at Dream Moods receive. Common dream scenarios include having your teeth crumbling in your hands or your teeth falling out one by one with just a light tap. Such dreams are not only horrifying and shocking, but often leaves the dreamer with a lasting image of the dream. So what does it mean?

One theory is that dreams about your teeth reflect your anxiety about your appearance and how others perceive you. Sadly, we live in a world where good looks are valued highly and your teeth play an important role in conveying that image. Teeth are used in the game of flirtations, whether it be a dazzling and gleaming smile or affectionate necking. These dreams may stem from a fear of your sexual impotence or the consequences of getting old. Teeth are an important feature of our attractiveness and presentation to others. Everybody worries about how they appear to others. Caring about our appearance is natural and healthy.

Another rationalization for these falling teeth dream may be rooted in your fear of being embarrassed or making a fool of yourself in some specific situation. These dreams are an over-exaggeration of your worries and anxiety.

Teeth are used to bite, tear, chew and gnaw. In this regard, teeth represent power. And the loss of teeth in your dream may be from a sense of powerlessness. Are you lacking power in some current situation? Perhaps you are having difficulties expressing yourself or getting your point across. You feel frustrated when your voice is not being heard. You may be experiencing feelings of inferiority and a lack of self-confidence in some situation or relationship in your life. This dream is an indication that you need to be more assertive and believe in the value of your own opinion.

In the latest research, it has been shown that women in menopause have frequent dreams about teeth. This may be related to getting older and/or feeling unattractive and less feminine.

Traditionally, it was thought that dreaming that you did not have teeth, represent malnutrition which may be applicable to some dreamers.

Other Perspectives
A scriptural interpretation for bad or falling teeth indicate that you are putting your faith, trust, and beliefs in what man thinks rather than in the word of God. The bible says that God speaks once, yea twice in a dream or a vision in order to hide pride from us, to keep us back from the pit, to open our ears (spiritually) and to instruct and correct us.

In the Greek culture, when you dream about loose, rotten, or missing teeth, it indicates that a family member or close friend is very sick or even near death.

According to the Chinese, there is a saying that your teeth will fall out if your are telling lies.

It has also been said that if you dream of your teeth falling out, then it symbolizes money. This is based on the old tooth fairy story. If you lose a tooth and leave it under the pillow, a tooth fairy would bring you money.

and once, i dreamt of my 2nd aunt and grampa... me and my younger bro were somewhr near a place tt seemed to be like a cemetry..

Cemetery
To dream that you are in a cemetery, signifies sadness and unresolved grief.

2006-07-28T17:04:00.000+08:00

ha..! i manage to get my bro to lend me his lappy.. phew. luckily my dad was standing on my side.. coz he at 1st refused to lend me his laptop, but my dad say my bro is very 'niao'.. haaha

hmm... im still waiting for the agencies to call me... today received another call from recruit express, regarding the job i applied at their website... forgot wat position is tt.. lolz

suppose to catch a movie wid jin todae, but places like cine and PS are fully booked... too bad. My bro and his gf will be watching pirates at bugis.. but the show will be quite late.

tml going sentosa wid shir and her frenz... supposedly we're all from the same sec sch. haaha... how funny. they planned to have dinner at pariss international... but i told her its too ex! dinner thr during the wkend will cost $50++!! I'm broke manz... realli i am! Yesterday went shopping wid hui and june... bought 4 tops for my work and interview.. hmmm... while shopping half way, saw jus and sm at G2000. haaha... how coincidental!

i wana save $$.. hmmm
=(

2006-07-22T19:26:00.000+08:00

darn... now i even resorted to using the lib's computer to do my usual online blogging... coz my bro's comp is down, and he simply just refused to lend me his lappy. stupid... i was so damn pissed with him the other day when i was rushing to send my resume to answer for an advert on the newspaper. i was sooooo bloody angry tt i nearly strangled him with my hands...!

hmm... seems to me tt everyone is busy with their own lifes now... seldom i hear anyone organising any activities nowadays. Gosh.. i miss the gd old days when we had so much fun back den! heehe... am i the only one who's slacking now? hmmm...

i'm quite embarrassed with my new hairstyle.. really, i think the lady had cropped too much of it. hmm.. i look like some lunatic escaped from the MPH... yikes! oh ya.. i got it straightened so tt my hair won't looked like some weed or grass...haaha. but tt costed me a bomb too! haiz.. i'm income-less.

oh... blogging in the lib is so diff.. coz i feel so much uneasy typing, i always turn ard to check to make sure thr is no one standing behind me to read wat i've typed... lolz.

2006-07-17T16:20:00.000+08:00

woww... wat a tiring wk manz.

Woke up at 5.54am on sat to go jogging at bedok stadium, but was told it was closed for a private event. So i ended up jogging ard the park. haaha... so hardworking rite? I thought i chld sleep for the whole of sat noon, but ended up in Marina sq to meet jin, and later flora... we went to the baybeats at esplanade. The music played by Plain sunset was quite nice... yet i was disgusted by the crowd.. There were many pespiring and sticky ppl ard.. and while pushing thru the crowd, some guy's shlder rubbed against my cheek! yucks.. arghh, it was damn disgusting!! Later in the nite met up with sy and Hm at the prata shop near my hse to have supper together. Wat a super duper tiring day...

I spent my sundae with Jr and gang at Macritchie reservoir... heehe. It was my 1st time there. I didnt run la.. but we walked. It was ard 10.3km.. haaha. By the time we reached the end, i was exhasted, even started stoning already. muaaahha... it was quite a gd exercise though...

okies... i shall jog whenever i can... wahh seh, so healthy. lolz

2006-07-11T21:21:00.000+08:00

haaha... watched an exciting soccer match btw France and Italy on Sunday nite... aiyoz... france nearly won if only number 20 jersey didn't kick a high goal and it rebounced out. Sheesh... and funni, duno if Zidane wanted a cool ending for his career... he head butt this guy from Italy.. and got himself a red card. Lolz.. real cool huh?

Supposed to go jogging for everyday for this wk, but was having cramps yesterday... i'll go jogging starting frm tml k? yeah... i need lotsa encouragement and support! lolz... Go go AGAH!!

Finished watchin my vcds... hey Jus... i really can finish the 24discs in 2 days u know... haaha. But coz i was too busy over the wkends, so i started only on Sunday nite when waiting for the soccer match to start. Full House is a nice show... shld go rent and watch.

See! At 1st i thought this actor is quite ugly... but after watching the show, i thought he is actually quite cute. lolz... His name is Rain/ Bi.. he's a Korean singer and dancer.

And actress Song Hye Kyo is sss0o0o0o pretty and cute in the show - Full House. Aiyoz... even i'm drooling over her pretty face. haahha...so i can understand why guys are also doing so.

Even with specs.. she can also look so pretty. faintz... muaahhaha

Aiyo aiyo... so so pretty!!

2006-07-05T16:27:00.000+08:00

Oh manz...! Italy managed to kick in 2 goals in the last 2 minutes of the extra time! arghh... Even though i support the Germans, but den I havta admit tt the Italians deserve to win. I duno... somehow i think players like Klose, Ballack, Lahm or Schneider are quite gd players. But den the Germans seemed to be lazy... they always wait for their fellow players to pass them the ball and to wait for the ball to roll at their feet. Seldom I see them running forward to their teammates to help them!!

I nearly got a heart attack watching them play last nite... wah piangz... duno wat they doing. Germany had so many chances of scoring, yet they seemed to had too much energy. They either kicked their ball too high up, or they kick their ball to far away from their teammates. Hadn't they learnt their lesson when kicking against Argentina!?? They're making their mistakes again!

Okies, so now with Italy in the finals, who do u think will be their opponent? France or Portugal? Hmmm... France has old and experience horses like Zidane, Henry, Viera and Ribery.. but den Portugal also has their powerful team including Figo, Ronaldo and the superb goal keeper - Ricardo! I think i'll root for France. heehhe...

With my favourite team Brazil out of the picture... everything seems to unpredictable now. haaha... My gramma woke up half way to peep at me in the living room, I told her thr's live soccer match. haaha... she somehow understood wat I was saying and didn't nag at me to sleep. Daddy came down during the extra 30mins. Funny... I tot guys in my famiy aint interested in soccer. I think I must have influenced him?? lolz...

Tonite will be another exciting match... GO FRANCE GOAL!!!! =)

2006-07-04T20:16:00.000+08:00

Day 6 - Our last day in Taipei...

This is the Hong Shao Niu Rou Mian (roasted beef noodles) near Bo Ai street. We had to dig thru our wallets and coins just to pay for this meal, coz we were both broke. We didn't know the Taiwan bank wasn't opened on Sat. Lolz.. This bowl of noodles costs NT$140 = S$7!! Expensive huh?! But i think it was quite worth the money, coz the beef is quite tender and its a very big bowl.

But pity this restaurant doesn't seem to have a name lei... i can't seem to find it. But it has a long queue of locals waiting to fill their stomachs with their delicious noodles.

Hey! Since when we visited America?? Lolz... if not how come thr is this statue of liberty?

Lotsa ppl queuing for the donuts. Yummz...

Jin's cousin's taiwanese friend bought us dinner at this chinese local restaurant. Heard from them tt S'pore's Stefanie Sun always frequent this restaurant whenever she is in town to promote her songs. =)

This was what they ordered. The noodles are the best! The soup is just superb... though it tasted like the normal prawn soup noodles in S'pore. But the best part is tt the soup is refillable. So we can drink to our heart's content!

After dinner we went to have dessert!! lolz... This is the famous dessert stall at Yong Kang Street. Many ppl order this mango ice kacang with mango sorbet on top. Don't drool pls... heehe.

Nite view of the city at Yangmingshan.

This is the presidential office.

This is the green tea the local like to drink.. it doesn't taste as sweet as the green teas we have here. At Taiwan, I've drank many of their green teas, red teas, and also bubble teas. muahhaha...

Taipei 101,... looking cool!

2006-07-04T18:10:00.000+08:00

Day 5 - We went to Wu Lai... Hmm.. actually this place isin't tt fantastic la.. It only has a small waterfall, a abandoned mini railway and an up mountain resort. I guess it'll be more suitable if u went thr to play with the water and hot spring.

Can u see the rainbow at the bottom of the waterfall?

This is the lover's walk path... muaahha.. but i'm not there with my lurver... or was i?

This is the Bali Wharf, opposite from the Tam Shui jetty. Does my dressing remind u of the aunties u see in the wet mkts? lolz... the heat was terrible and i only bought 2 jeans and a 3/4s with me. The slipper was newly bought at XiMenDing.

Have u seen such a big aloe vera before? Neither did i...its my 1st too. lolz

If only my face is smaller... i think it looks like a bun. Haahaa..Artistic shot by Ms Jin. I pestered her to help me take a side portrait. The nose is too round, the face is too big, the neck is too short, the eyes are too small... blah blah.

We're at the famous Fisherman's wharf at TamShui. This photo was taken by our fella S'pore visitors. Haaha...

This is called the lover's bridge. No wonder we saw so many couples... Haahha.

2006-07-04T17:33:00.000+08:00

Day 4 - We went to Chiang Kai Shek Memorial Hall. We're such gd gals aint we? Lolz.. I think seldom u'll hear ppl vising such places, esp for young ppl like us. haahha

OH!! I really lurv this Ferris wheel! Doesn't it look pretty? And the colours just look so nice!!! It is airconditioned in the cabins.. and it'll take around 10/15 mins to complete a single turn.

Can see me??? =(

heehe!! I'm in the cabin on the ferris wheel! HAPPY!! =)

Hey! I can sell this for a post card rite? Beautiful isin't? I snap this picture by myself k? Don't always criticise me for being a bad photographer. Lolz.. I do snap some nice pictures sometimes.

Colourful bright lights of the ferris wheel taken from the ground.

We found this cute Hello Kitty fan while we were shopping at Shilin nite mkt. Haaha... It was really VERY useful. I think its the most morthy item I've invested in. Haahhha...

This is Shilin nite mkt. Look at the crowd! It looks as though it is chinese new yr's eve at Chinatown. There are rows of shops on the left and on the rite, and even in the lanes.. everywhere! and You can find food and bubble tea everywhere too! I lurv their fried and bbq mushroom. YUMMY!!

2006-07-04T15:46:00.000+08:00

Day 3- We joined a mini day tour to bring us around.It costs us around S$100. It was quite wroth the $ becoz the places we visit is quite inaccessible and faraway from the Taipei city. We went to Keelung, Jiu Fen, Yeliu...

This place is more like a temple for praying, but with many statues of the 18 Luo hans, and the Buddha.

Looking down from the temple...

Who's back view is tt in the picture? haaha... Ms jin lor...

This is Yeliu Scenic Area... The colour of the grass, the sand and the sea is so matching rite? But mind u, the temperature here is around 36 degrees i think, coz the heat from the ground is really unbearable!! Everyone is either wearing a hat, hiding under the umbrella or doing both! And i regret not borrwing the umbrella from the driver. Haizz...

It really seemed as though we're here for a Geography field trip. Haahaa.. here, we keep seeing potholes, rocks... uneven errosion of the stones.. etc etc

Hey! Who left his/her giant slipper on the rocks?! Please quickly claim back this stinky slipper pls...

Hey!!! We're in Egypt now??! Lolz... obviously not. Yeliu is most famous for its Pharaoh Queen's head. It really looked quite majestic.. and everybody is crowding round it. The background also looked like some kind of desert in Egypt rite? muaahhaha...

This is the 2nd time we came to Yangmingshan, but this time it was to a different part of it. This place is the area where we can see the active sulphur spurts. This place is much cooler than the other places we've been.

This photo is taken in Jiu Fen, in a cafe tt sits on top of the mountain. It has nice scenery view to the bottom of the mountain. And its quite windy up there. This cafe also provides lodging lei...

This is a tea house...The big plastic bag i'm holding is full of muachi. muahhha...Anybody want some?

We ended our day 3 by spending our time at XiMenDing, whilch is just a 5min walk from our hotel. This dessert is found at 1 of the cafe, this dessert is called Little Bear Forrest (direct translation in Chinese). The little bear cookies on top of the ice cream is quite delicious! =)

2006-07-04T14:53:00.000+08:00

OEI!! This bloody computer is making me crazy, I've been trying to zip the pictures and twice it restarted by itself. Arghhh...!!

Oh yeah, hi everybody, I'm back from Taiwan. I reached S'pore on Sunday noon, but was too tired to upload any photos. Coz previously i stayed up to watch live soccer matches in the hotel. Heehe... managed to watch Germany vs Argentina, Portugal vs England and Brazil vs France. Cool manz.. Other matches I watched will include Ghana vs duno who... and some others I forgot.

The weather in Taipei is damn humid and the air is quite dusty. The weather can hit at least 35/36 degrees in the noon. So hui, rem to bring more pairs of shorts, sleeveless tops and also sunblock. And bring a proper pair of walking shoes and also slippers. Oh oh, and also sunglasses, hats and umbrella. Don't be afraid to use the umbrella coz the gals over thr always use it to shield themselves from the sun. Tt explains why they are all so fair.

Day 1

We arrive at our hotel at Cheng Du road... It is small and cosy. But by the end of our journey, this rm looks like a rubbish dump with many plastic bags lying around. Haahahaa...!

Day 2

This is Yang Ming Shan, we came here 3 times.. this was our 1st time, we didnt know this route to Yang Ming Shan was for those who wanted to hike the mountain. Faintz... lolz

This is how Taiwan's mrt look like. They don't call it 'di tie', they call it 'cheng yun'.

We went to Taipei 101..., to their 89th floor. Their lift took less than a minute to get us up there. Cool huh?

Ms Jin posing at the Taipei 101 picture in the day.

Looking down from Taipei 101.

Ya, this is me, at the top of the world. hmm, yeah, its quite dark isin't?

Taipei 101 in the nite. This picture is found in the observatory, so i just snap it for convenience sake. lolz... Anyway, its nice isin't it? The blue sky is just so awesome!

This is how the it looks like in the lift. Pretty rite? It looks as though we're viewing thru the telescope to study those astronomical planets and stars.

2006-06-25T01:26:00.000+08:00

Went to sentosa with the Sim gang... had so much fun thr! But this time i didn't enjoy playing soccer with the guys coz i really think its difficult to kick on the beach... it reminded me of the last visit when i kicked sand into someone's face, and the sand ended in his eye.. OPPS! lolz...

I came home with a lobster red back. HUH! surprising rite? esp when i only stayed in the sun for only a short while. aiya.. u look at my skin, its suppose to be fair.. so of coz it hurts now. Sometimes i feel itchy on my back.. I've to apply moisturiser and aloe vera to cool my back. Hopefully it won't peel... (but it always peel and return to its former shade).

Okies... i'll be leaving for taiwan on monday noon! yippee...!! Finally a jolly gd time to enjoy and to throw away all my worries for the time being. I really shld enjoy my trip esp after all the hard work i've put in during the exam. yeah! i truly deserved it! and daddy really sponsered me by paying for the money i've changed for the trip. hmm... i shld have changed more rite? den he'll give me more too... haahahhaha... but somehow i felt a little bad tt daddy is willing to pay for my expenditure, coz its been a long while daddy has enjoyed going outta s'pore for a holiday. Nvm la, wait till i find myself a stable job, den i can repay him and let him go enjoy himself. as for my mom, she always know how to enjoy herself, so no worries. muaahhaha...

I went to Ikea this evening to get boxes to keep my notes and also to pack my rm. Its a disaster!! Also helped my elder bro to get his black zip box to keep his stuff... Felt like getting the hotdog and a cuppa drink when i finished buying, but it was nearly dinner time. By the time i walked to the bus stop, i felt so darn tired and sweaty, so i ended up taking a cab hm. lolz...

Yippee!!! relax relax relax... *sigh*

2006-06-23T03:14:00.000+08:00

Oh my! The lead actress for 'My Lovely Sam Soon' actually put on 7kg for this role!! Her name is Kim Seon-Ah. I find that in the show she looked quite pretty, but when she's thin. she looked even prettier!!

Ta dAaa!! pretty eh?? Big eyes... long hair. pretty smile...Woww... I've never imagined her to be this slim. She really look beautiful. heehe.

haaha.. this is what i call impossibly handsome and beautiful creature. faintzz... lolz

2006-06-23T02:52:00.000+08:00

Hmm... i really think this Korean actor is cute. His name is Hyun Bin/ Hyeon Bin. Lolz... like as if he's a statue being carved out!

Handsome isin't he? Mind u... he's only 24 this yr! Born in yr 1982. haahha...

Yeah, he's the lead actor in 'My Lovely Sam Soon'. haaha.. but i prefer his hair to be swept from the side. And no wonder he looked so gd wearing the formal jacket, coz he's 184m tall!! woww...

This actor is also quite handsome. His name is Lee Dong Geon. Hahha.. he's one of the main cast in 'Lovers in Paris'. yeah.. he also looks better with his hair swept from the side. Lolz...

2006-06-21T15:08:00.000+08:00

hmm... I feel so tired.. physically and mentally. Yeah, exams maybe over. But its just tt.. how shld i explain...? I feel tt thr's something missing... something seems to be lacking. i don't know...

I wish i can just lie down and rest... i feel so tired. Have u ever wondered what is ur purpose or goal in life? what are u living for? Or rather, who are u living for? Urself? Others? Ur parents? Somehow, I feel lost now. What is my nxt step? What shld i do? I don't know... i really don't. Sometimes I wish I can fall into deep sleep and never be awake. haizz...

Maybe in the eyes of others I maybe weird... am I a weirdo? ha... maybe u can change 'weirdo' to 'unique'. haizz...

Yawnzz.. i'm feeling sleepy. =(

2006-06-21T01:39:00.000+08:00

Went East Coast Park with Hui, Xy, K, Jus, A and Ru today.. aiyoz... came home with painful legs! coz i went blading... while the guys rode their bikes... i fell once, on my rite butt. Hopefully it won't become blue black, think i've got ample fats to cushion my fall. haahha...

Hui and me. With our hair flying.. coz its just too windy and cooling! Hey.. noticed sth missing frm my forehead? lolz... =X thanx jin!

Can see us with our blades on? Me, hui and Xy... darn tiring manz. We ranked ourselves from:
zero fall - xy
1 fall - me
2 falls - hui

haaha... we kept hearing hui screaming her head off. lolz... i guess its been a long time since we blade. hence its explains why we fell!

These 2 guys never fail to make my hair stand... and including the goosepimples... =)

this 'couple' always seem to enjoy themselves and may disappear all of a sudden. Lolz...

Hey!~ whr is our grp photo? Oh.. tink its still in xy's cam...

yawnz... tired ah. Think somehow or rather, I feel as though im acting like Kim Sam Soon eh. I mean for the part being clumsy and lazy. haaha...

2006-06-19T21:26:00.000+08:00

oh nonono...! Did i ever mention who i saw on Sat when i was out with the gals.. after the movie Jin wana have dessert, so we walked over to wheellock. I persuaded the gals to go Big O coz i thought it was less crowded than the opposite NYDC. But before we enter, I saw E... Faintz... luckily ah! I realised tt b4 we all walked into Big O. Tian ahh... can't imagine what will happen. Sheesh.. why doesn't it seemed to me tt I'll always bump into E? Aiyozz... in sch, i'll try to siam away... esp after what H did. Tiann ahhh....!!

Anyway, I'll be heading for Taiwan nxt monday! Huhh... how fast rite? I seriously didn't have the mood to think abt this when i was preparing for my exams. Have not even met up with Jin and Dot for abt 2 months.. or even longer! aiyoz...okies, think i'll go prepare myself for the trip and to go and do more research on it. Ta! =)

2006-06-19T20:53:00.000+08:00

Met up with Jin and Dot over the wkend, had lotsa fun with them! We went to watch movie - Silent Hill... hmm not a very interesting movie. Went shopping with Jin for a dress she can wear for attending wedding. I saw many nice shirts and tops, but didn't buy them coz i thought I may not have the opportunity to wear once i start working. We went to Sakae Sushi for dinner, and ordered lotsa yummy food. And duno y the person forgot to record down what we've ordered, so we end up paying half of what we actually ate. Lolz... =)

Today is Monday, I spent yesterday nite watching the vcd Jin lent me. Its titled "My Lovely Sam Soon". Stayed up all nite to watch the vcd and slept at 6.30am coz I didnt want to be caught by my gramma, wait she nag n nag. haaha...

This story is abt this lady named Sam Soon, who hits 30 this yr, and she just broke up with her bf she met in Paris while she was thr learning to be a patissere (meaning a baker who specialise in French pastry). In the eyes of others, she's tall, plump, stupid and hopeless in lurv. hehhe.. and when she just broke up with her bf, she cried in the hotel toilet.. and being a blur queen. she entered the guys toilet. She cried so pitifully until some1 came knocking on the door. This guy (Jin Hun) happens to be her future boss. He hired her to do baking in his restaurant. Jin Hun comes from a wealthy family, and his family runs a hotel chain in Korea. And things starts happening btw them when this guy 'hired' her to be his gf so that his mom can stop making blind dates for him. He is ss0o cute and handsome.. but is cocky, spolit and rude, and 3 yrs younger in age than Sam Soon. He knows Sam Soon is so rite being his 'gf' coz he is sure he won't fall for such a person like her, and meanwhile, Sam Soon is also in need of $ to save the roof over her family's head. Hence, she agreed.

This guy's ex-gf (Hee Jin) came back from US.. but he didnt know she left him 3 yrs ago for US coz she needed to be operated for a gastric cancer, so he still hates her for being so cruel to leave him 3 yrs ago rite after he had an accident and needed to fix artificial bones in his left legs, that accident also killed his bro and sister-in-law. But after much shouting,screaming and crying, he came to realise tt. But just at this time, Sam Soon also started to fall in lurv with this man. To make things worse, Hee Jin's admirer also flew over to Korea to look for her. This admirer is Hee Jin's doctor in the US.

Hence while time goes by. they realise they have to proceed forward and to look at the future, rather than being in the present but living in the past, and everything is based on the past memories.So while Sam Soon and her boss realised tt they truly liked each other... Sam Soon's ex-bf came back and tried to break them up. Oh, did I mentioned tt Sam Soon's ex-bf is a flirt and a jerk? Lolz... Being engaged with Sam Soon's fren, he still wants to carry on seeing Sam Soon. Faintz... so thr exists a confusing and complicated lurv 5 triangle. haaha... But of coz.. the ending is always sweet!

Sam Soon ended up with what she wanted...

This is a nice show la.. maybe u gals can rent this vcd and watch it. haaha. Even my dad also didn't complain when me and my mom got engross with it. Heehe... thr are fights btw the guys here n thr, and also cat fights btw the gals... funny yet touching story. =)

It shows tt life isn't always a bed of roses.. but when we continue to persevere, we'll end up with what we really wanted so much for ourselves rite? Even if we may face obstacles tt make us feel like giving up. But maybe we shld really strive on... for what they always say 'U'll reap what u sow' ain't tt sound rite?

2006-06-16T12:44:00.000+08:00

---------------DECEMBER BABY ---------------

This straight-up means ur the most good-looking person possible... better than all of these other months! Loyal and generous. Patriotic. Competitive in everything. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Easy to talk to, though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision, yet complicated to know. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Has that someone always on his/her mind. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding. Able to show character. one guy/girl kind of person. Loveable. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. loves music. pretty/handsome. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Sensitive.

heyheyhey! this is so true woh... I mean, maybe i'm not tt gd looking and pretty of coz.. but den the description is alike! Although I don't think i maybe soft-spoken. Lolz.. but other than tt.. mostly quite true lei. =)

2006-06-16T11:20:00.000+08:00

Time really flies.. doesn't it? The day before yesterday was my last day of exams.. To think of it, actually this yr's exam is more manageble than the other yrs... Haiz.. except tt i screwed up my Msm paper. SHEESH...! And if i had practised and paid more attention on my matrix, i chld have done my Mm rite.As for the theory subjects.. i've really done what I chld do.. perhaps I shld have added a few more pts here and thr, but it just didn't occured to me when I was sitting in the exam hall... =X

I'm so relieved that this nitemare is over... not that I may have another nitemare when the results are out, but somehow I think i'll be safe.. in the sense that i'll be able to pass my subjects. However, u can't be too sure abt it too! Just like what my younger bro keep saying to me. He is quite rite abt this, but also, he can't wait to see me fail, so he can laugh over my failure. U can see how evil and sinister my bros can be.. my elder bro even changed his password and deny me access to his lappy. So mean!! But den this morning he changed his mind and changed the password back to the old one. Hmmm... tts more like it..I think he can't stand me nagging and giving him a black face. Lolz...

Suddenly after the exams, I feel so carefree, and I have less nitemares and can sleep better in the nite. I don't know if I gace myself too much pressure this time round, but I really hope to do well. Ya, partly coz I really want to wear my graduation hat during the convocation, and partly wishing my gramma can take the photo with me. Many things happen over these few yrs, and they happen to quickly.. Sometimes I though I'll go crazy when I'm studying for my exams. I can just suddenly breakdown and to reminisce abt the old times. I really missed grampa, ah ma and my aunt. Actually more for my grampa... we really spent quality time together as a family. haizz...

Okies.. I really have not thought abt getitng myself a job. I'm really enjoying the freedom I've got rite now. Frankly speaking, I don't quite like being stucked in the office and when its time for lunch, i'll go outside and eat, then when time is up, i'll have to return to the office and slog my day infront of the computer. Thats not quite exactly what I want. I told Daddy whld really wish if I chld open my own shop and sell the things i want. Like baking and cooking nice pastries, pasta, and delicious desserts... And my dad and mom didn't quite disagree with me.They didn't chide me for being unrealistic...but then, having the capital and the capability is another thing. haiyoz...

Anyway, I'm looking forward to spending my holidays in Taiwan with J, too bad D can't join us, or else we'll have a great time thr! hmmm...

2006-05-18T18:25:00.000+08:00

Haiyoz...! i'm left with less than 12 days to prepare for my exams!! HEELLPPP!!!

I get sick and tired whenever i have to pick up my esap notes to read thru them. Its just so sickening!! I mean, thr's so much to memorise, and i'm confused abt the format. I mean, i have frenz who already explained the format clearly to me, but i'm still confused. Sometimes i don't even know what the heck i'm confused abt. I think its becoz of the amt I've gota memorise. It just seemed so IMPOSSIBLE!! ya.. thr's this misson impossible 3 now going on in cinemas, and here i'mtlaking abt anoher misson impossible. Lolz... Well, what i'm suppose to do is to know all the weird and funny terms and memorise well for the essay rite? But I'm afraid of knowing only a few terms, and tt's not going to help me pull thru section A! coz section consists of qns from the whole subject... wah piangz.. =(

Oh by the way, esap stands for Elements of Social and Applied Psychology. Ya.. I'm becoming a psycho soon. Maybe i can soon understand what is everybody else thinking... ha! Mindreading... yeah. I also have frenz telling me that the marking for it isin't tt strict coz many of them scored quite well the previous yr. Hell of a heck... tt doesn't mean i'll do the same rite?

pray pray pray... and stillpraying. Hopefully this nitemare will end as quickly as possible. Daddy was telling me today, he offered to sponser for my Taiwan trip, as long as I did well for this final yr. Oh manz... and what if I didn't do as well as I ought to? "You can return me the $ lor..." Faintz.. I'd rather spend my own hard earned $ without guilt, rather than getting him to sponser me, only to spend it with fear and guilt that may eventually turn into disappointment! And instead of ging on a shopping spree i might end up flying home with all my money still in my pockets. But of coz.. who knows, if i really did well, I might go on another trip! hey... what a great idea! muaahahaaahaha....!! yah, I really hope so...

Everytime my cousin see me she'll ask "so are ur exams over?' arghh....! NO IT ISIN"T!!! How many times must i repeat myself, it'll only be over on June 14th. ya its quite unbelievable to see how hardworking all of us are now, when the exams only last for ard 2 wks! Ans to be exact, the examination is only held for 3 days only!! (I'm talking abt myself of coz...) 1st 2 papers all in a day, and the last 2 papers are only 1 days apart. How bad can their time management be? Shucks..! they shld go read up more abt tt...

Okies... back to my e..sa..p again. euwww... mental torment!! =(

2006-04-28T22:44:00.000+08:00

Life is also like a box of chocolates.. coz you'll never know what u'll get. true huh??...

2006-04-28T22:06:00.000+08:00

Haiz... just like a nitemare coming through, such things does seem to always happen at an inappropriate time. Maybe its just pure coincidence... haiz... I really hate it when such things happen to me, esp during exam period. It really seem to me that i'll experience such stuff in every yr of my uni life. It really sucks...

I 1st received daddy's msg just when i was walking into the sch this morning... 2nd aunt was critical danger. I immediately called, and he was crying... saying the blood pressure was too low. Haiz.. duno y, history seem to repeat itself again. Just like when it was during my grampa's time. I called again later during my class break, and he told me the doctor said she won't be able to last thru today. And not long after the break... i receive the final news. My 2nd aunt just passed away.

My 2nd aunt just celebrated her 55th birthday in hospital the other day, I bought her a funny birthday card while daddy bought her a fruit cum bird nest cum flower basket. She really seemed happy... the last time I saw her was yesterday, she was still quite awake... but still quite breathless. Well, think i can save on the details.

Did I ever told u how did my christian name came abt? well... it was 2nd aunt who gave my this name 'Emily'. It stands for 'Every Minute I Love You'... haaha.. funny rite? I was told, when I was born, everyone thought i looked ugly... so they associated me with 2nd aunt, whom she herself also claimed that i'm even uglier than her! haizz...

She and my uncle were looking forward to spending their May holidays in Spain and Portugal... and now... haiz.

I once watched this show, the actress said something which I felt it was quite true.

She said, when those who are leaving, often are like kites flying with the wind.

But often they are held back, by those whom they loved and those who loved them, as if they are pulling onto the string attached to the kite.

Hence, they can't let go...

Therefore, we must learn to let go when it is time to do so, then they can fly with the wind, and land at a place wherever the wind brings them to, and settle there peacefully.

True huh? But how often isit when u'll use your mind to think esp when u are overcome by emotions?? Quite unlikely it seems...

Actually my 2nd aunt has always been soft-spoken... always encouraged me, believed in me. Even when she was in the hospital, i msg her to tell her not to giveup, we'll always be there for her. But instead, so asked abt my exams, how am i coping. I told her I'm fine, just a little stressed. And she said she believed I can do it, just like i always had.

So how can god take away such a nice person? But sometimes such things can't be explained.. when ur time is up, its time to say gdbye... We're are all very saddened by her sudden departure, we never meant to say gdbye. I didn't... tts y i left the hospital quietly yest, coz i didnt want to disturb her resting. Or maybe i shld.. haiz.

Life is so fragile... esp when anything can happen anytime, to anyone. Like my 2nd aunt, she was already suppose to enjoy her life...when both my cousins are already living quite well. My elder cousin is even pregnant with her 3rd child. A pity that the child couldn't have a chance to see his/her gramma. And my 2nd cousin was promoted recently...

So what I suggest to all my frenz, pls persuade your parents and grandparents to go for yearly full body checkup... esp when there is a history of sickness in your family genes.Pls don't try ti save such expenses coz it'll be even a larger amt when ur health deteroriates!! I think everytime when we regret, it is often too late to make amendments. So live your life well and strong, cherish every minute of it.

haizz... Hope she can find a peaceful place up there, wherever she is...She'll always be loved and living in our hearts.

In loving memory of my 2nd aunt,
Your niece whom you gave this name, I love this name very much and...
Thank u so much for believing in me...

Friday, 28 April 2006

2006-04-22T13:41:00.000+08:00

Haaha,... I feel blessed to have such gd friends around me. Was quite surprised when i received a msg from Ms D... from her msg, it suddenly dawn on me that she might have grown to be more mature as compared to her younger days. It was very comforting to hear from her... haaha, she sms saying "gd nite em, u must be weary nowadays.. see u soon" It might seem short, but its already very comforting for me to hear this.. esp from her. Thanx... I really appreciate it. But i'm fine.. cooping well, but abit stress, everyday telling myself I don't have much time, theer are still many materials I have not touch on to revise for exams!!!

I saw W online the other day... I duno y, but it always seem so coincidental that whenever I need come comfort or words of advice, W will pop out all of a sudden. ha... that was my initial impression of W when we were in jc. W was suppose to be from the Science stream when W changed and join the Arts stream, and suddenly just appeared in my class one day. Funny... some ppl think W is weird.. coz we just simply can't understand W's behaviour and actions. But still, we became friends, and even closer friends after we left jc. Actually, W is just being nice, W is always nice to everybody... (or else i thought so), haaha...

My mom & youngest aunt, even 2nd aunt herself is understanding to tell me to focus and concentrate on my exam preparation. Ya.. I do know my priorities... but I can't help feeling a little upset when I know I can't do much to help sharing their burden and worry. Ya, even if i'm free, i might not be able to offer much help either... coz i'm not god.. which sometimes i wish i was. Hopefully I'll be able to help out after my exams...

Heard tt 2nd aunt has started on her therapy yesterday, and she seemed to be in gd spirits and having a gd appetite. She had tomyam noodle for supper last nite... glad to hear tt. Today is her birthday, i wish she'll get well soon and be brave to fight against her sickness. We're quite a close nitted family... (or else I thought so)... =)

yawnz... sleeping is never enough for me. I took a nap the other day from 6 to 8pm and woke up feeling superb tired and lazy. Gramma was saying 'y don't u sleep longer so u won't feel so tired, and then u can concentrate better when ur studying?' hmmm... it does makes sense.. but!! How many hours are considered enough? Duhz... I'm someone who can sleep 12hrs straight and wake up still feeling tired. HHAAAHAH!!! Gd gracious... lolz

2006-04-14T22:43:00.000+08:00

I need to breathe in fresh air... exercise more and why can't I fastforward my Taiwan trip??! arghh...

Things i want and wish:
1)score well for exams

2)be slimmer... faintz, i wish i won't outgrow my suit i bought for my future interviews

3)2nd aunt to be cured quickly and leave the dreadful hospital

4)holidays!!... my alisan-de-gu-niang

5)get a interesting job, work with fantastic and nice ppl and with a reasonable pay =)

6)catch up with all my frenz... sec, jc, temp job and uni mates! whr's the fun tt is missing? waiting to be found at the lost-n-found?

7)live happily ever after... (*sniggles)

2006-04-14T22:08:00.000+08:00

Well well well... I just realised my last blogging was in march... time really flies!

Exams exams exams... I really hate it!! Why can't we go to sch without having exams and tests? Do exams really examine what we've learnt in sch? Or does it examine how much we can memorise and remember instead?

I'd rather live a life that all I need to do is to hunt for my own and family's food and live a life with no worries. Why doesn't anyone feel that we have to live a life worrying abt stuff in every stage of our life? Like when we're in pri to uni.. we have to worry abt exams, tests and sch. Then as we step into the society to work, we have to worry abt our pay, family, expenses. And as we grow even older, we have to worry abt ourselves, family, grandchildren... blah blah. Life is full of worries. Haaha, so thats why we have desserts 'tien ping' sold everywhere to sweeten our life.. isn't it? But then if we were to overeat the sweet stuff, we'll be down with diabetise. What an irony... =(

Tml is grampa's 2nd yr anniversary... Really miss him alot. Sometimes i'm still quite convinced that everything just happened yesterday, or rather nothing has happened. I still remember the pain... the anguish we all felt, the mental torment we had to go through. 2 years has passed so quickly... I was in Econs revision class when it happened. haiz...

Most prob tml i'll be going to de temple to pray my maternal grandmother too... she has left us for almost half a yr already. Sometimes i really wonder if this is all real, if its really true, does it really exist.

I think life is very unpredictable... sometimes things just happen so suddenly like it hits u so hard and fast on ur face. U can't avoid it... neither can u choose to hide away from it. So what do we do? Face the problem? But what are the consequences? The problem may still be there...

arghh... what a problematic world. sheesh....

2006-03-18T21:15:00.000+08:00

FINALLY....! Finally I can lay my hands on my bro's lappy. U noe...? I haven touched the lappy for almost 2 wks!! haaha... yeah, coz my bro has been busy with his projects so he's hardly home, and I've been missing the laptop since my bro is always carrying it ard.

Well well well... mocks are already over. CAN U BELIEVE HOW FAST TIME FLIES??! Yucks... I gotta admit how much I hate it manz... gotta do all the shitty work, memorising, studying, reading... everything revolve around me nowadays is exams, study, exams and more studying! Yeah... I went down to the another doctor on Wed... He sounded quite professional, but the young lady at the clinic who does the dispense of the medicine didnt tell me anything abt the pills making me drowsy. So i spent my whole Thurs lying ard.. with open eyes but a blank mind. Lolz...

Soon... the finals will be here. And even sooner... we'll be on our way outta s'pore, to celebrate the end of our studying life.. and that marks the start and beginning of a whole new chpt in our lives.. and tt is... WORK!! Hopefully everything goes on smoothly...

I was clearing my emails when i came across a mail from friendster. Apparently W had sent me a msg... well... I was kinda surprised.. It was really a pleasant surprised. Hahaaha.. made me think tt befriending a person like him is kinda a blessing.. God gave us friends so we won't be lonely, so tt we have someone to share our ups and downs. And of coz... I noe.. I have more than 1 such gd friend. Hehhe...!

So everybody... who thinks he/she is my friend... I wana say a BIG thank u... Lets all work hard for this final exam.. and for those who are already working, hope u'll get a big fat bonus and those who are not spared from being stuck in the s'pore education system... All the best!! =)

I really hope I can do well and pass with a tiny weeny bit of 'flying colours'. Lolz... A once told me he has higher expectations and confidence in me more than himself.Hopefully I'll be able to prove him rite. haaha... funny.

2006-02-24T18:59:00.000+08:00

Now for part 2 of the trip...

Daddy and mummy with the pork seller. They seem to know the couple who was selling pork at the local mkt...

This is the supposedly 'old folks home'. haaha... The elderly men always gather here for a puff, to watch tv, or just to play chess... =)

These are the women from the family... so many huh? lolz...

5 daughter-in-laws and 2 daughters. Aiyoz.. so many.

Fire crackers!!! yeah... my cousin had a great deal of fun playing with different kind of fire crackers. Some how, I didnt have the enthusiasm like him. Perhaps I've really grown up??

A table of handsome guys... muaahaha... All of them call me their 'gu gu' which means aunt. ! of them really looked like a HK actor. They are all young and promising... 2 already in uni, 1 in jc and 1 in sec sch.

This is the temple we went to pray. It drizzled the whole day, making the temperature to drop to almost 15degrees. And mind u, 15degrees there is so much different from the 15degrees your aircon can go. It is so much cooler! I had to wear 4 layers to keep myself warm enough.

No la, this is not Great wall of China... I just posed for fun coz my mom said the red lanterns look pretty... faintz... haahaha.

EEkks!! Help I forgot to close the door!! haaha... faintz

Can't u see I still had my pants on? duhz...

My mom had a hard time controlling her laughter and taking this picture for me. Lolz.. We went to this porcelain gallery to take alook at what China make out of the porcelain they got.

Actually the streets in China reminded me of those in HK. they look similar aint they? Only that the streets in China have many motorcars parked outside the shops... they just don't care.

Note: they lurv to sound their honk.

2006-02-22T23:44:00.000+08:00

Actually I'm quite happy to be able to travel down to my ah gong and ah ma's old town to see what isit like... I saw with my own eyes how small their rm was when they got married. How the old town was like.. even though there aint any pigs and chickens runnings around like before. Haaha.. My relatives were very hospitable. They were very nice ppl, helpful and warm. Everyone seemed to welcome us.

We reached Guang Zhou at abt 3pm.. and booked a van immediately to bring us to Shan Tou. But quite unfortunately, the drivers didn't exactly know where the village was... so by the time we realy reached our final destination, it was already 10.10pm.. we didn't even had our dinner!! But our relatives immediately prepared some food for us.. much to my horror, they put lamb meat into the steamboat.. and hence everything tasted weird. So I swallowed a few fishballs and quickly drank the bowl of plain porridge.

This picture was taken when we stopped midway at Shan-Wei. The journey from Guang Zhou to Shan Wei took ard 3hrs. Faintz... My butt really hurts. Lolz..

And I was quite tired so I decided to get down the van and take some pictures. i was the camera lady for the whole trip.

This is for self entertainment purpose. Hahhaz... u can ignore this photo.

This is my irritating, yet adorable cousin. He likes to hug me.. duno y, perhaps becoz I'm very hugable like a bear... Trhoughout the trip he keeps yelling for me "Emily jiejie! Emily jiejie!' Sometimes can't tahan him. Sometimes he glares at me with his superb big eyes.. sometimes he like to make funny faces at me. See...! He even stole my snoopy pillow. =(
He is also superb duperb vain pot. Likes to pose for the camera... tsk tsk tsk.

This is the place we pray.. its called 'Ci Tang'. I duno what u call this in English...Ancestral hall?? Think they've renovated this place.. coz it looks quite new.

Do they look alike? Of coz la... They're siblings mah! My big aunt is now staying in China, with 5 sons and 2 daughters. Lucky aint she?

From left to rite: my uncle, my mom, 2nd aunt and big aunt

2006-02-22T18:58:00.000+08:00

Heyoz... I'm back from China liao. But haven been studying coz I'm having fever. No la!! it's not bird flu...but inflammed tonsils only. Coz I didnt drink enought water... tts y... So I've decided to take another 2 more days to rest and to get well before I continue with my revision.

So while resting today, I went back to youtube.com to check if they have upload the 2 final episode of 'It started with a kiss' Taiwan drama series. And they did!! I really tihink its a nice show... like those u watch on tv. This show was aired on tv once many yrs ago in Jap version...

This is the finale of the show, when the guy realised he can't hide his feelings and to marry another gal just to save his dad's company.

I like the ending... and I think it is quite cute and funny. Hahha.

Enjoy!!

2006-02-12T17:22:00.000+08:00

Okies... I haven't been blogging lately.. and this is the same reason as why u don't see me online tt often nowadays. Coz my computer's network is down.. I can only use my bro's lappy when he's either not ard, or when he's not using de comp. =(

Well, well... I think I've been in constant attention and figure of the discussions amongst the gals.. I think the reason for them to nag is becoz V day is ard the corner. Sorry I've gota use the word 'nag' coz u gals really can be longwinded at times. But thanx.. I'm appreciative of ur love, care and attention. Thanx gals!

Anyway, I'll be away from town starting frm this coming wed till nxt mon.. coz i'll be going on a short tripto China. Supposedly to attend my uncle's wedding.... BUT! they've postponed it..and we've already bought the air tickets. So now instead of going to Guang Zhou, we're going to Shan Tou.. My ah gong's hometown. Cool huh? I've never been thr...and this will be my virgin trip thr.. and 1st time i'll be seeing my relatives who speak Teo Chew..

Teo Chew is a language I find difficult to master since young... My late ah ma used to luff at my silliness... having to greet her 'happy chi new yr' at her birthday.. and greeting 'happy birthday' when it is during the new yr. Haaha... I thought I've always got it rite, coz I'll practise on the way to her house in daddy's car. Nevermind abt getting it wrong in the future.. haiz, coz I won't get to greet her again.

And time really flies... it'll be prelims in 2 wks time.. and den finals will come greeting us! arghh... stress stress....!!

Lastly, Happy Valentine's Day to all my frenz who are attached.. and those who are not, don't worry.. V day is also known as friendship day. So just enjoy this day with ur gd pals.. it's been a while since u all last catch up rite? hehhe...

2006-02-03T21:31:00.000+08:00

Oh no...! Chinese new yr is over... and there goes the festive season. haizz... very soon, it'll be prelims and then.. the moment i dread the most, final exams! sianz

I wonder what is everyone thinking of nowadays.. is it coz V day is coming soon or what? They seem very keen to ask me to get myself a partner. FAINTZ... even my mom also does that. TIAN AHH...!!! Recently, one of my gf got attached.. and that prompted them toask when am I gona be like them. Why? I'm happily enjoying my freedom being single... I suppose thr are pros and cons abt being single and being attached. So why not let me enjoy my singlehood? Let me clarify myself.. I dont spend my every V day alone. V day is also friendship day! So its the time we 3 meet up and enjoy our yaya sistahood. lolz...

My mom just told me her colleague (aunt Jas) saw the photos we took in Korea.. and she commented I look like a 'fu puo' - meaning rich lady in translation. FAINTZ... and this aunt Jas happened to be from the women'sassociation or some sort of thingy. I had a gd laugh over it manz... funny.

Well, everything goes down to 'fate' rite? If things are meant to come, it'll come... But I really appreciate my gfs fussing over me. thanx ah...! but yet, no thanx... haaha.

Happy Chinese new yr everyone!
cheers! =)

2006-01-20T13:07:00.000+08:00

Stayed in sch till 9pm for Msm class on Tuesday and J gave me a lift home as she was going back to her office to get some things done. Called home to asked if anybody wanted prata from the nearby shop.. and Ar tld me 4th granduncle just passed away. What sad news... haiz. Ever since grampa passed away in yr 2004, his 2 brothers also left with him consecutively in yr 2005 and now yr 2006.

Life is just so fragile... I have never thought of how I shld go abt living my life until grampa's death... his death sort of shook me up from my dreams. Until now when my wai po also left me last yr, then I only realised that how much isit I cherished those who lived with me.. My gramma is 90/91 yrs old this yr... Thus, I'm always convincing myself she's gona lived for many yrs since she is still quite fit now. But den, the death of 4th granduncle has proven me quite wrong. 4th granduncle had been known for his gd health... he's always been travelling almost every yr back to his home town Guang Zhou to celebrate Chinese New Yr. Only recently he has been admitted hospital several times for his heart problems. But from what I heard during the funeral, my 4th granduncle was still joking happily with his grandson on that very fateful morning. And it was during the late evening that he suddenly felt unwell... the ambulance came only 30mins later, and he passed away on the way to the hospital.. they couldn't revive him.

Looking at him... it reminded us of my late grampa. 4th granduncle really somehow or another, looked like grampa. Yes, there is no doubt they were brothers... but 4th granduncle somewhat didnt look like himself... but like grampa! Maybe we're just letting our imaginations run wild... but the resemblance was uncanny.

U know, sometimes this kinda stuff is just so unexplanable... I just don't know how to go abt explaning it.

Before I could leave my hse yesterday to head to sch, daddy told me my mom's god brother passed away too. I really hate to receive such news... especially when its near my exam time, be it just the prilims or the final exam. I really hate it... This is the father of my cousin who just got married recently. She was the one who had her marriage held at Fullerton... See... how brittle is life. Heard from mom that he passed away from heart problems too. And the sad part was his heart problems hasn't been a problem for many yrs already, and it just acted up like that all of a sudden.

I was told my cousin was hoping mad, jumping and crying... scolding those who were trying to convince her that her father has passed away. I think its really hard on her family. My this uncle has only 1 daughter... and she only just got married. And the worse of all... she's only in her late twenties... How bad can u imagine its for her?

I'm always thinking how whld react if I were to be in ppl's shoes... I don't have any sister... and usually for this kinda stuff, guys don't always show how sad they are on the outside. they'll only feel very sad on the inside.

I don't want to live my life full of regrets... sometimes there are just somethings I can't let go.. Nevermind that I can put it aside for moments that I am happy... But whenever I'm sad or simply just stressed, these memories just resurfaced very quickly...

I think I ain't the only person who feel this way... but yet sometimes I feel that I am the only perosn who feel this way. How weird...

2006-01-14T23:29:00.000+08:00

I've looked through all the photos I took in Korea and wondered why I look so ugly in many of them.. sianz. Lolz.. I think I still look ok at the airport.. But as days passed, I look iglier and uglier. Of coz u all will disagree with me.. tts becoz I refused to upload those photos with me looking ugly in them. hahha...

1 person 1luggage... so in total there were 3...

Hey ppl... wat does these 2 statue remind u off? The tour guide told us the folks over at Jeju Island touch these 2 statues when a woman in their home is pregnant. So indeed they want the woman to give birth to a son...If I didnt remember wrongly by touching the statue on the rite represent that u want your future son to be gd in his studies... i.e a scholar, and the statue on the left represent that u want your future son to be gd in other areas like i.e to be a policeman, a civil defence officer. Aiya.. I duno how to explain la..!

These are trees as u can see... they look like autumn leaves and dried flowers. Beautiful aren't they? I can consider going to these countries with 4 season during autumn, spring and summer. Frankly speaking, spending a wk over at korea during their winter season left me feeling kinda blue. Mood swing??

I took a picture of this carasoul at Lotte World. I really think it is beautiful... (I'm jealous of Hui's present!! -_- ) Anyway, I didnt had a chance to sit this...we weren't given enough time..no time... no time la...!!

We stayed in this hotel on the very last nitw.. I lurv their toilet! So big!!! The toilet only has 2 doors to keep it closed and mind u, there is still a gap inbtw the toilet doors even when u close it shut. haaha...

And on the left hand side of the toilet is a bath tub... But pity I didnt shower in there. lolz...

On the rite side of the toilet is the toilet seat and also a shower stand. Cool huh? okies la, I'm always amazed and fascinated by big toilets. Lolz.. Don't think I can tell u all which hotel is this, but I can tell u personally la. A hint... it starts with a letter 'M'..... money?? Lolz.

2006-01-08T12:50:00.000+08:00

Yes.. I was trying very hard to open my eyes. But the sun was shining in my direction, the relfection from the snow also made it hard for me to open my small eyes. -_- haahaha...

Behind me was the steeper slopes meant for the pro-er skiiers and snowboarders. They're all so darn cool manz!

Hows me in my ski suit? I look pro rite? Lolz...
Tts my mom, me and Ar.

This picture was taken in a stidio where we also learned to make kimchi. I was at 1st given a pink dress, but becoz i had too many layers of clothing, i couldn't arms couldn't quite fit into it. So in the end i had to take away my wool sweater. But this red and green one looks nice ya? But I duno why we were asked to wear the hat... I don't rem the actress in Da Chang Jin wearing one. hehhe...

Sorry Je... I really didn't see any shops selling these tradtional costumes. This studio only rent their costumes, they don't sell it. The places they brought us to all sold winter wear...

How do I look? U know.. the funny part abt the aunties in our tour grp is that they all thought I was around 16/17 yrs of age. Do I really look tt young? 1 auntie tot I was in sec 4! While the other one tot I was in poly... faintzz..

My mom and I are now standin infront of the Korean presidential house. The security is very tight. We were told we can only use cameras, no video filming was allowed.

Look at the picture, can u see 2 big protruding eyes on the rite side of the mountain at the back?

We are standing on a bridge at Lotte World... Beautiful isin't?

LOOK LOOK!!! Its snowing!! Lolz... Look carefully and u can see the snow flakes on our head. Luckily for us, it started snowing on the very last day when we were due to return to S'pore. I looked a little pale in this picture coz I wasn't feeling very well...puked in the morning after drinking the soya bean milk. Aint Sh's eyes big? Haaha... Bro..ur really lucky!! =)

I didnt realise it started snowing until the kids in the bus were screaming their heads off. Coz i was resting on the bus after taking the vomit and panadols. At 1st when i stared out of the window... I really tot it was raining. The snow flakes became waterdroplets once it touched the bus windows. I went down the bus to take a better look. Can u see the snowflakes around me?? =)

2006-01-08T12:21:00.000+08:00

Now presenting the long awaited photos of my Korea trip.. TADAAA!!!

We took this picture near the sea as u can see.. It was freaking cold, and the sea breeze made things worse.. the breeze blew straight into our faces. Guess how many layers I was wearing?? Lolz...

Tts me, Aaron, mom and bro's gf (Shumei)..

Hahha.. I looked a little dishevelled in this picture rite? Superb ugly... But I loved the background. Temperature hit a minimum of -8degrees in the nite, can't help but to look like this. Besides... I didn't slap on powder on my face.. which i kinda regretted. It may look nicer.. But in winter time, it is too dry to put powder coz the powder may dry up and cake on the face. =(

I guess it used to be a waterfall in the background, but the it froze during winter time.. hence explaining the frozen water on the rocks. BbRrr... freezing!!

This picture was taken on the day we went skiing at nxt to Vivaldi Ski resort (tts whr we were stayed). It is snow u see on our rite hand side and at the back is mountains. Pretty isin't? But the temperature forced us to put on our winter caps, which i tot it made me look silly. It looked great on Sh, Ar and mom.

I pursuaded my elder bro alvin totake this picture for me. I was very 'bu fu qi' coz I was too clumsy.. couldn't climb onto this big heap of snow. They were laughing at me, mom and Sh tried giving me a helping hand, but I still slipped and fell so many times until i gave up. Lolz... Pls pardon the reflecting badge on the wind breaker.

2006-01-02T23:28:00.000+08:00

Hey everybody! Yapz.. I'm back from Korea already. Actually I've already came back last Friday.. but had been too tired and lazy to blog abt my trip. Well, it was nice to see it snowing, but only for a short period of time. To be frank, I didnt really enjoyed my this trip to Korea.. becoz of several reasons:

1)it was darn cold... esp the day before it snowed.. it was practically FREEZING!
2)my younger bro keep irritating me, and I also quarrelled with my elder bro over some petty little things =(
3)on the very day tt we were suppose to fly back to s'pore, I puke in the morning.. haizz...
4)we had to board the plane 4 times within 8 days of the trip..and this really made me superb tiring
5)everything was very rush..we had to wake up at 5+/6am (s'pore time) almost everyday
6)despite having the ticket tt allowed us to each enjoy 5 rides at the theme parks, we weren't given enough time to sit all 5!
7)the queues at the theme parks were so long.. despite the weather.. snorezz
8)we had pork most of the lunch and dinners.. and I'm quite sick of meat now, pls don't ask me to eat red meat!

But despite all these stupid little things tt made me sulk and frown.. I still did enjoy little tiny whiney parts of the journey.. like:

1)getting to watch movies on board the plane like Mr Bean, Must love dogs, Fantastic 4, The Interpreter..blah blah
2)we went to spa valley.. (I did a full body scrub, it was suppose to be a little painful, but I ended giggling and trying my best to stifle my laughter.. it was darn itchy..
3)my bros, my mom and bro's gf decided to go for the ride at Lotte World called 'Gyro Swing'.. it was superb fun... felt like I was gona thrown into the ice cold river.. for another moment, I tot I was jumping off the building. Hahha.. exciting isin't?
4)I get to eat ice cream almost everyday for the past 8 days there... it was shiok to eat ice cream in the cold weather
5)trying my best to speak Korean so as to impress the aunties there.. to gimme further discount. hahha
6)Oh ya, for the spa valley thingy, I also get to experience a different kind of spa.. having soak my body in hot water, while the top part is exposed to open cold air..
8)the last day we stayed at korea's Marriott Hotel.. I think so far it was the best hotel with ultra big toilet.. Lolz
9)pretending to be Korean, but was stunned and confused when they speak korean to me... I'm lost!

Anyway... It was such a wonderful experience la. But I duno why, perhaps it was the cold weather tt made me long for home. I was kinda home sick... silly isin't it? =)

Now it is Korean speaking lesson time..Lesson no1:

1) Auntie = Ah-zhu-ma
2) uncle = Ah-zao-si
3) gal/young lady = Ah-ga-shi
4) expensive = bi-sai-yo
5) how much? = er-zhu-ma
5) yes = yeah
6) no = ah-ni

muaahahaa... anyway, the stuff there in korea was quite expensive.. due to different cultures I must say. To us S'poreans, We regard food as being more impt. But to the Koreans, they regard fashion how you dress) as being more impt. It represents how you carry yourself.. and how you want others to respect you. Hence, the Koreans always dress very nicely despite even having to go to the nearby family mart for an errand. And also... the Korean gals have superb fair and nice skin! *Jealous jealous* *admire admire* haizz...

I shall post my pictures once I can find the time.. and the energy.. Lolz.

2005-12-23T18:30:00.000+08:00

I'll be leaving for Korea in a few hrs time.. Have been watching tv and packing my luggage this afternoon. Just clicked to channel U when i heard this familiar music from this taiwan series. Coincidentally, it is one of tjhe short anime I once glued to from a particular webby. It was nice to watch it acted out by real ppl. Hahha...

Read the newspaper this morning and it was reported that south Korea, China and Japan are hit my this snow storm, a few ppl died. Scary manz... Lolz. But I still think we're gona be fine, except that I'm not sure if there will be any delays in the flight inbtw Che-ju and Seoul. My stomach has been feeling weird since yesterday... as though someone has tied a notch. muaahaha...

I'll be back on the 30th dec.. nxt Fridae.. so don't miss me so much k? haahaha...

Lastly, I wish everyone a Merry Christmas!

To the sim gang: hopefully u'll like the gifts u exchanged for.
To the gals: Hope u'll receive many presents k? (btw, Jin, whr is my Christmas prez? Don't tell me this yr i won't receive any just becoz I'm going to Korea??) Lolz..

If there are nice stuff over thr, I promise to buy back k... But if thr aint any... den..er..hmm..... muaahaha.

Seeya guys soon!!

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =)

2005-12-18T00:47:00.000+08:00

Haizz.. I really hated myself for this. Ok, I've just changed my hp yesterday, and it only dawned on me that my pictures are still inside the old hp which i traded it in. It had a few pictures of my late ah ma, and the photo of grampa's wreath during his funeral... IT'S ALL GONE!!! sianz... I totally forgotten abt it.. until last night. And i dragged until just now before i made the phonecall to Singtel and they told me the trade it hps are brought to the dealers on a daily basis... there goes my precious impt photos! haiz... Yeah I do know I have long already painted a picture of them deep down in my heart.. But nevertheless, having a photo of them in my hp means I can carry and bring them around with me rite? =( I wana cry liao... sianz

Went to sch this morning for Msm.. I thought this LP (Linear programming) topic is quite a challenge... its quite tough. And the though of having to miss class nxt wk.. really made me feel guilty and worried. Haizz...

After class H and me went to Orchard to catch a movie... Jin met up with us to watch it too! The movie we watched is called 'Perhaps, Love'. Yapz, its the new chinese movie co-starring 4 different actors and actress from the different countries. For example, Jacky Cheung is from HK, Zhou Xun is from China, Jin Cheng Wu is supposedly from taiwan/Japan, and the last actor, is from Korea (he also co-starred in Da Chang Jin). Regarding the latter, I thought he looked kinda familiar, but thought it cant be the guy acting in the Korea show.. but frenz confirmed he is the one!... Hahhaha. Anyway, this chinese movie (or rather muscial play) is nice, I did enjoyed myself while sitting in there for almost 2hrs. The gal is pretty, yet the guys, I think I can see their pores quite clearly. Lolz.. Must advise them to use toner. =X

And there is this newly open Gelartissimo (I think I've spelt it wrongly.. hehhe), it sells ice cream. And ppl i tell you, their mango and lychee flavoured ice cream is VERY NICE!! Though quite ex at $3.90 per scoop, and for 2 sccops is costs $5.30, but for 3 scoops is costs $6.50 (more worth the $) haahha!! Yapz.. and...!! Pls don't try the banana flavoured one.. Personally, I don't quite like it. I do like eating those big Phillipino bananas.. but this one.. err.. I whld prefer to give it a miss. haahah! The chocolate flavoured ice cream is also nice too...! Yummy!!

Yapz, time really flies... I'll be leaving for Korea this coming friday (no wonder my frenz didnt msg me abt this upcoming Christmas dinner they're planning). Lolz... I'm excited abt Christmas... Are You?? =)

Oh by the way, I was told my 8th granduncle's son (so i shld address him as my uncle even though he's just a few yrs older den me) is getting married. Gramma was chiding say his dad just passed away, how can like this.. so fast get married. Who noes... such villages in the China also practises shot gun marriage. Haaha.. I wana luff. Haizz... It isin't a thing to be proud of... =(. Anyay, I'm interested to accompany my dad to China.. Hmmm... But den hor, the wedding will take place during Feb lei.. Think it will clash with my prelims.. How ah? Lolz...

2005-12-14T01:17:00.000+08:00

You guys must be thinking what took me so long to blog abt my birthday party... faintzz.. coz i'm tired lei, very tired! On that day, i woke up at 7+am to go to the mkt with my parents.. Luckily my breakfast was quite filling in the morning, coz I didn't have the time for lunch on that day. After reaching home, i rest a while, and started washing the fllor outside, coz I was afraid my frenz will dirty their feet while walking out to take the food. After washing... I went to Katong to buy durian puffs for my frenz. On the way there, I passed by this shop selling party stuff like balloons and candles etc.. so I bought those sparklers like candles...

Came back home ard 3+pm and started wrapping my doror gifts for frenz, I didnt do it earlier got I didnt have enough of the wraping papers... Went to get them before i got my durian puffs. I didn't have time to eat my lunch and I can feel butterflies flying in my stomach. I was nervous and yet excited! Finally went to get dress ard 5pm, and while putting on some makeup to make myself look more presentable, Jin & Dot came in. Hahha.. we screamed and hugged.. and laughed at ourselves having act so silly infront of my dad. After they came, grps of frenz started to pile in too...

I have to apologise to my Jc band frenz, coz I think i've neglected them.. for I was busy running in and out of the house.. and also, I've neglected my bro's gf. So sorrie manz... I didnt mean to... But i wasn't thinking coherently that nite too! But nevertheless, everything was fun!!

My presents consist of:
- 3 perfumes: Flower by Kenzo, Vocalise by Shiseido and Boss by Hugo Boss
-1 set of speakers (can be plugged into computer, radio and my ipod etc)
-A teddy doll house box (it is really very cute!..)
-2 bags: 1 from roxy and 1 from the chicken brand
-3 necklaces: 1 is a red cat, 2 from SK (given by my youngest aunt n bro's gf)
-3 watches: 1 from Fossil, 1 from Quartz and 1 from Swatch
-Origins set: consisting of a scrub cleanser, 1 nitecream mask, and 1 pimple cure
-2 flowers: 1 bouquet from Sim frenz and 1 frm B & his gf
-1 bracelet frm Ad (just got it todae during breaktime in sch)
-1 pair of crown earrings
-1 pink shirt
-1 box of Ferrero Roche

Yapz.. and i was wondering how come no one gave me stuffs like snowglobes and muscial box... haizz, perhaps I shld have told my frenz i wanted tt so they can buy me. I like those snowglobes from Precious thoughts becoz it can turn while the music from underneath plays. And musical box have nice music too... and with a pretty ballerina dancing on it. Pretty!! =)

Anyway, thank u to all my frenz who came.. and to Jin and dot for helping me decorate the house.. its beautiful... Too bad I didn't have a red carpet hor.. or else it'll look more grand rite? muaahaha..

The pictures at my bdae celebration is mostly ready, cept those from Meng's camera... Can some1 tell me how i can post it online mah? I'm an IT idiot if you still duno... Lolz.

Have been feeling so restless and tired these few days... I'm 21 now, can go for RA shows already. heehehe! Ad was saying how come I'm so naggy now... old le mah, of coz. I receive a bracelet from him todae in sch.. haaha. Becoz of him i walked in and out of the class a few times...The bracelet has colourful glass beads, quite pretty.

Thanx for all the presents u all gave me.. it is so memorable...!

I didnt cry on that day too... think i wasn't in the rite mind the whole day... I only stared briefly at grampa's alter when I placed the cake infront of it. Haizz... Gramma nearly didnt want to take a picture with me, but luckily I had my aunts trying to convince her. Think she looked happy in the photos... =)

zzz....

2005-12-10T00:09:00.000+08:00

Alrites, its official now... I've just turned 21 yrs old. haizz... how come it sound so old eh? Though I'm the last in my group of frenz to turn 21... The feeling is kinda weird. Time really flies... When my elder brother was celebrating his 21st bdae, I was still tihinking how I shld also celebrate mine. And now.. its my turn...

I don't know how I would react tml.. whld I be smiling and giggling happily, or whld i feel somewhat sad. I whld really lurv to take a happy family photo... but with grampa gone, I can't imagine how I'm supposedly to feel happy tml. Ya, i assure myself he and ah ma will be able to see me..., to share my joy and happiness. To see their little cry baby grow up to be a real lady, entering adulthood. But I whld really lurv to share my joy with them... The other day i was thinking of them on the way home and I nearly tripped over and fell. I bought sweet potato soup dessert for my gramma, I thought she'll like to have sth sweet after lunch. Hahha... If only I knew how to assure them I'm old enough to think for myself...

I think i'm feeling this way coz I just heard my 4th granduncle being hospitalised. Haizz... After grampa and the recent death of 8th granduncle, 4th granduncle is the only one left in this wolrd. All his brothers have gone...leaving him quite lonely. Hope he'll recover soon... Gramma grew a little paranoid after receiving the phonecall and needed daddy to bring her to the hospital to visit granduncle. He has been always in gd health.. but I think his age is catching up on him.. Lets pray that he'll recover soon k.. heard tt his heart has been giving him some problems. Grampa, too, had heart problems... =(

Anyway, I've done everything by myself.. from catering the buffet, to ordering the cake. hahha.. aint i independent?? Lolz... tml i'll be skipping class, and i'm feeling guilty now. But I'm feeling kinda lazy... and I think it'll be betta to i can go to the mkt with my parents tml. So i can help to carry the heavy stuff and also to buy the stuff i need. Excuses... excuses!!!

Bought the wrapping paper today... but i think it isin't enough to wrap the sweets! Gave up after a few attempts. Daddy was nagging as I was messing the whole table with my mountain of sweets. He told me I betta get ready for tml.. don't wait till last minute and finally keeping the sweets all for myself. muaahaahaha!! so funny!!

Happy birthday to myself... haizz... feeling like a 60 yr old lady already. Tian ahh...!

2005-12-07T15:10:00.000+08:00

Ohhhh Yeah!!! It has started to snow over at Korea already, Yesterday the temperature hit -6 degrees over there. Kinda excited over it... lolz.

Anway, went for cousin's wedding on Monday at Fullerton One... the ballroom was just a semi-circle... kinda small. The bride i thought was pretty, and her body looked darn bodylicious.. Yeah... she's dark and slim.. with the correct measurement in every curve she has got. Lolz... And she looked really very pretty when she wore the red cheong sum with gold trimmings.. haahaha. Heard tt the groom was 2 yrs younger den her.. hmm... that explains why he looked this young.. and he is also quite fair, quite the opposite from my cousin. haahaha. The dinner started as late as 9pm! And Aaron fell asleep on daddy's lap... haaha... and the dinner ended at 11.30pm.. faintz... so by the time we reached home, it was already 12pm.. tian ahh...

Yesterday went shopping with H and Je... They went shopping with just 1 motive: to get me a decent dress. Even Fg said i shld wear a dress or sth, unlike my usual dressing to sch. Hey! I don't think I look chou Loh when i always wear jeans lei.. I'm just being myself wat. I don't go to sch for a fashion show... I feel so comfortable in jeans, shirts and 3 quarters. Lolz... ya la, I admit I'm kinda tom-boyish.. but I've been like this since young. I still remember I used to lurv wearing dress when i was Pri3 and younger. But ever since i grew older, my likings for dresses and skirt started to fade... and I didn't understand why my mom had to force me to wear a skirt sometimes. There was once, during Chinese New Yr, she insisted i wear a skirt... and i refused. Coz I didn't understand why i shld comply to her, and it is me who will be wearing a skirt, not her ya. Why shld she control how and wat I wear? At least I'm not having superb short hair and look like a boy rite? Anyway, she refused to let me step out of the hse with me in jeans... so my dad had to persuade me to listen to her, and the whole day i was sulking wearing my skirt. Lolz...

But I've grown up now more feminine la... I still wear skirt, but just on more important occasions like Chi New Yr, wedding dinners... Hence for frenz who think tt I always wear shorts and pants, you are wrong man.. haaha, I shal also prove you wrong this coming sat.

Anyway... despite walking for more than 6 hrs.. I still didnt buy a dress/skirt... haaha.. nvm la, I shall wear the1 I have in my cupboard.. I only wore it once... Lolz.

2005-12-05T00:18:00.000+08:00

haahaa... finally bought W's present. Yapz, it'll be a belated present, but hope he really whld like it. Hehhe.. or else I'll be paiseh, after receiving quite a few number of presents from him, esp last yr's! Lolz.. Time really flies, in a wk I'll turn 21. w0o0o....!!

YIPPEEEE!! I'm so happy! Coz it is snowing over at Korea already... muaahaahahaa... I'm in a holiday, festive, Christmas mood!! Lolz... so happy wor... I'm always dreaming how whld it be like snowing.

I've finally finished writting out my Icp essay, after so many days of draggin here and there. Tml will only be a half day sch.. coz my 2nd half of class is cancelled, luckily J reminded me. haaha... phewww

Tml's my cousin's wedding... how weird ah, to be wed on a Mondae.. hmm.. But I'll still be there to polish up the food. It'll be held at Fullerton. So must dress nicely... lolz.

I lurv December! tts why i chose to come out of mummy's stomach only in December. haahaha... silly me! =)

2005-12-02T02:36:00.000+08:00

Oh yeah! It's December now! Lolz... I don't now if i'm suppose to be happy or worried... hmmm. Coz though its a time for us to be merrying (coz its MERRY christmas), or isit time for us to be worried abt the materials that are piling up!... hmm, 2 more mths and we'll be having our mock again. arghh... its always exams exams n and exams! Tiann ahhhh....!! Our Icp lecturer had also told us he is gona give us a test after the New Yr. Sianzz...

Stayed at home the whole day, woke up late at ard 2+pm... read newspaper and tried to so my icp essay. But despite having all the time in the world, I only wrote 3 pharagraphs. Thus, it is not completed yet! arghhh....!!

Helped gramma to rub her back wid the medicated oil. She told me to use de cotton wool, so my hand will not kana the oil. How ridiculours to use the cotton wool rite? So i used my hand instead... And my whole palm stink of the medicated oil now... Lolz. Maybe it'll help the blood in my rite palm to flow better with the help of the medicated oil.

I had to withstand not washing my hair today... Didn't dare to go anyway todae. Phew.. luckily I can finally wash it tml. Hurray...! Tml it'll be as gd as new hair again... laalalalla =)

2005-12-01T01:13:00.000+08:00

haahaa...okies, I've finally went to straighten my hair. Now it looks so straight, that frenz have commented how soft my hair is. Actually the truth is, my hair has always been this smooth, but just tt it doesn't look tt nice only, coz of the waves/curls. I asked the hairdresser to cut short my fringe, but I tink I look quite stupid with a short fringe like tt... Hopefully I'll look 'wiser' nxt wk when my hair becomes more natural. =)

The hairdresser who helped me to 'iron' my hair was a different auntie from the one who cut my hair. I trust the auntie who cut my hair more.. coz usually its been done by her. Anway, this auntie who 'iron' my hair, also 'ironed' my scalp too!... And she didn't do it once... but at least 3 times!! Tian ahh... I was quite afraid tt she might do it a few times... hence instead of reading the newspaper i had in my hand, i stopped to stare at her reflection in the mirror so as to remind her to concentrate on my hair, rather den to turn and look at others when still holding tt iron in her hand! Scary man....!!

Was online when jin told me to look at this guy's blog - http://sky.prohosting.com/gssq/writings/girl.htm
I thought was he said was very true... I mean, we're gals rite, so of coz we're different from guys. Woman are from venus and men are from mars, haven u heard of this before?? Anyway, yapz, I myself had scored many on this list... Lolz... So gals, have fun reading this, and guys, u may have a gd laugh over it.

And as for the previous entry, I did some research.. and according to my frenz, its better to have a higher standard, den someone who has a lower standard, and gets cheated by guys often. muaahaha... but anway, I still don't admit I have such high standards. Believe it or not, its up to individual. Cheers! hahha...

2005-11-28T00:29:00.000+08:00

I don't know what is happening, I may have giving them a wrong impression of me, or perhaps they have interpreted me wrongly. This, I wonder why.... Is it written over my face or what??

From close frenz to frenz who are not that close to me, they seem to have this impression that I have high expectations of my nxt bf-to-be. I'm not sure if i've been giving such impression, but certainly, my expectations aint tt high either. Of coz there are certain expectations (everyone does this too...!). I'm just puzzled by frenz who have told me this... Tian ahh....!!

Was talking to Ad the othe day, asked if he wana come to my bdae party... he asked if its an official invitation, or I'm just asking for the sake of asking. Of coz its an official invitation! But I'm asking him in such a unofficial way coz I'm afraid he may feel awkward coz of being alone at the party. So instead he asked if he can not go.. or rather instead, we go out and have dinner some other day. Oh yeah, becoz of this, i have my reservations... don't ask why, but i always have such reservations. (I told u, i'm just plain weird.. believe me k?) Not tt i don't wana go and claim my present frm him, but... I just can't explain. anyway, he does owe me a present and... for that matter, 2 dinners! Hence I still can't decide or not whether to go... Hmm... he said he thought I'll be more dependent (emotionally) since I'm turning 21 soon. Hey!! It is not a problem of turning 21 soon, or growing up to become a more mature adult. But its just my way of thinking that sets me apart frm some others... My beliefs, thinkings, and fear may change overtime, but certainly, the change whld not be such a big difference!

Arrghhh...I'm also sometimes bewildered over my own decisions and feelings. Ya, according to ESAP, we sometimes will qns our own schemas and such schemas may change overtime under different situations and environment. Lolz... Do i sound professional enuff? hahha!

Anyway, I wana tell those who are coming to my bdae party, a big thank U for all the trouble coming down. And for those who are not coming, due to different reasons... I'm disappointed. I may not say it directly in ur face, but I do feel disappointed. BUT....! A big present may turn my disappointment into happiness. haahaha...

2005-11-24T01:59:00.000+08:00

Haven got the time and energy to blog recently, coz was busy with Dot's and Jin's birthday... Have been going round to buy their presents, meeting up with them, and spending wonderful time with them. I lurv it!!

Happy 21st Birthday Girls!! May we stay like this forever till we're old...

I'm now busy with my own birthday preparation. Today settled down to have time to check my mails, and saw the proposal Gallery Hotel came out with. I say it really sounds like a wonderful... fantasy birthday celebration. But its quite expensive i must say. I was deciding to celebrate at home when daddy say it wouldn't have the 'feel' of going to a chalet already. Thus, i spend my evening trying to search for available chalets. But most were fully booked, otherwise, the dates aint rite.

Was abt to go to bed when he saw the proposal on my computer, and he asked what was that. I told him, and his reply really surprised me! Daddy told me if it is nice, he is fine with it. wWwwooowWW!! Of coz i whld really lurv the idea of celebrating it at a nice and fanciful poolside. But I don't think its worth the $.. I'll rather spend the $ on food. Have nicer food and stuff... See..... I'm not as spendthrift as some ppl may think of me.

I was thinking of splitting up the celebration into 2 days, the actual day with my frenz and the nxt day with my family. But den... it'll be weird mah. How how how?! haiyoz... headache lei. It maybe because of my constant nagging and irritating grumblings that led my dad to agree with the hotel proposal. But I'm not sure, He doesn't seem to like the idea of celebrating at home. Tian ahhh!!!

Okies, i shld start writing my wishlist rite? Lolz... Just don't buy too bimbotic stuff can already. I'm not used to it.. that is just not me.

For watches: I chld get use to 1 though i don't have the habit of wearing them. I prefer square of rectangular surfaces and those with thick straps. Coz i have quite a big wrist.... Lolz

For wallets: I'm still using my red LV wallet (pls don't ask me if its real or not)...

For bags: I prefer tote bags... But err.. maybe u shldn't buy me the chicken brand i always point to, i think I've changed my mind abt tt.

For perfumes: I have Dior me Dior me not, Ralph Lauren, Dkny Apple, Davidoff Woman, Elizabeth Arden Green tea and Lancome's Oui. --- Quite enuff for a person like me who seldom wears perfume, only when I remember or in the mood to do so. hehhe...

For soft toys: I do lurv soft toys especially teddy bears. But I do have loads of them at home already, so many to the extent I'm force to stuff them into the big plastic box. =(

As for other stuff... I'm still not sure yet. Coz I'm sure most of you shld know, sometimes when i buy something, i may not even use/wear it. hehhe.. so if you're not sure, feel free to ask me. =) Hopefully I'm doing you all a favour by typing out these stuff... But of coz i'll still like the thngs u all buy for me la...

2005-11-17T21:18:00.000+08:00

Went to Bugis on Tuesdae after class, actually thought of eating steamboat, but it wasn't open in the afternoon. So proceeded to the coffee shop nearby. Was half way trhough my mee soto when J pointed out there's a plaster in my soup! Oh goodness me...!! Felt a little disgusted... and whenever S and J talked abt it, i feel like puking.. lolz.

Finally we went to have steamboat in the evening after studying a little... had fun there. Yummy yummy!!

Been staying at home these days to watch the 2nd box of Da Chang Jin... Ouuhh... So nice! So exciting! heehe... Poor gal, always framed by ppl... and close ones had all mostly passed away. The gd fighting against the bad. Of coz the gd will triumph in the end rite? Hahha.. but I'm not there yet.. still needa borow the 3rd box of vcds.

2005-11-13T02:30:00.000+08:00

Cough cough... sniff sniff sniff... No worries ppl, this IS NOT an emergency red alert of birdflu outbreak. I'm still having a couple of coughs.. and my nose tends to block up in airconditioned rms. But I'm already getting better... with my daily dosage of ice milo... and other stuff. Lolz...

Yesterday was Daddy's birthday.. Happy Birthday daddy!! I forgot to buy him a cake... coz me and Aaron were practically glued to the tv. Nope, ur wrong, we aint watching cartoons... but!.. we were watching this famous Korean drama palace show, Da Chang Jin, from the courtesy of whoever it was, who lent my mom the vcds... But they weren't a complete set!! Oh goodness me... I was still asking Aaron to put on the nxt vcd, when he said tt was the last disk! Lolz... Think mummy was a little paiseh to borrow the whole set all at once. This is quite an interesting Korean drama show. A little unlike frm those melancholy- drama- mamma- tear jerking- 3/4/5 lurv triangle stories. Think most of you must have more or less heard abt this drama. Looking forward to the nxt set... =)

Today wasn't a boring Saturday unlike wat Ay thought. He thought I had a boring and unevenful Sat, tts why my mood wasn't gd just now..No la, I'm just having mood swings, despite having bought 3 tops. hahha.. Jin called me when I was already on my way home. And i was kinda lost, not knowing how to get off the bus, and which or how i can get to Orchard. Luckily... Meng was on the same bus as me and told me thr's this bus 105 frm Toa Payoh tt I can take to Orchard... pheww...! Thanx Meng!

Went to the newly relocated Apple store at Wheelock to get Dot's bdae prez.. we bought her a shuffle. Really... November is a mth tt the bank can declare me bankrupt... 2 best frenz celebrating their bdae... and worse, their bdae is just a day difference. Tian ahh...

We went to have sushi after getting her the shuffle... and den proceeded to shop ard tt area. Went to Zara.. and bought 3 tops.. (shirts or rather). Ya, my maid gave me a perfect excuse to shop, coz duno wat she did to my pink shirt.. it was ruined! Seemed like it was bleached... heehe... But these 3 tops are still affordable la... We also went to Macafe and I had iced latte... it tasted so bitter!.. Know why? Coz we didn't know we had to add sugar in it ourselves.. but Jin's drink was perfectly fine... Totally opposite of mine. Hers was superb sweet! hahhahaha...

Den I suggested catching a movie... And Jin said we shld watch a more 'intellectual' movie.. and we ended up watching Oliver Twist. It was quite a nice movie... suitable for kids... which explains why we saw quite a handful of parents together with their kid in the cinema.. How intellectual it was... lolz... muaahahaa... I sat nxt to this caucasian kid, and was so shocked to see her holding a popcorn tub, and her dad was also holding onto another one too! I told Jin tt gal confirm can't finish.. but when the lights came back after the movie, i saw 2 empty popcorn tubs on the floor! Did she really finished all her popcorn? Or did her dad helped her polish the whole tub? hahha...

Tml going to chinatown's Yum Cha for dim sum. Its my 1st time there to this new restaurant... I lurv to yum cha.. coz you know why? I'm a true blue Cantonese... haahahaaa... nah.. tts crap only. lolz... Tml also going to Dot's bdae chalet... Tink i'm gona be tired on Monday again. Monday blues u call it. Yes I do have it... Its just another manic monday.... yawnz

2005-11-09T11:34:00.000+08:00

Yawnz... just woke up, feeling tired as usual. Slept with a blocked nose last nite, stupid Aaron kept farting infront of me.. can't stand him. He has gotten his yr end results... Oh god!It was VERY bad... I took out my own report card to compare, and I was way better than him. Lolz.. and he argued that perhaps my sch set easier papers than his sch.. (dun argue le la...), I flipped to sec3, and to my surprised, I even scored a 93 for my Math D. Ya, perhaps to some of u, this subject is chicken-feet, but I wasn't born bright... meaning I've to put in double the effort just to get the same score as my frenz. I was really very hardworking when i was in sec sch... unlike now... Lolz.

Brought Sm to meet her last nite... He said she was pretty and looking very young... muaahhhaha! So happy for her. But maybe I shld be more tactful.. coz since I didn't like ppl to do such 'introducing' stuff, I shldn't also impose such ideas on others. But somehow, I just did it...haaha, =X She msged me this morning, at... 4 PLUS!! Just to say she didn't see how Sm looked. Hahha.. this gal.

Okies, I have new frenz tagged to my blog... New frenz doesn't mean frenz whom i just knew, but new ppl, new links to my blog. They're all my frenz... fun ones. Spending time with them made time passes quickly... and also helped me forget my troubles and worries. I now have less time to think of the unhappy stuff.

Daddy's birthday is this coming Friday. Talked to mummy and Aunt abt his present, they suggested A handphone whld be a better choice then a massage chair. Alrites den...hope he'll like the handphone we buy, he has been eyeing it.. since.. err... last yr? lolz.

laalalala... this is the elmo song!

2005-11-06T22:55:00.000+08:00

haaha... I'm emily the hairdresser todae... Lolz.. Coz todae i helped gramma to wash her hair. Aiyoz... think she haven't washed it since her eye operation. Faintzz... So shampooed it twice.. scrubbed and scratched... She praised say I washed her hair very clean.. heehe...

Went jogging in the evening... jogged 3 rounds around the estate... feeling shiok now after my shower. muaahaha...

yawnzz... Was listening to my ipod, when i came across this song.. it sounded so familiar! And guess? Actually fg was looking for this song.. tt time we heard this at 'This Fashion'. Andy Lau sang this in Cantonese, so I helped him to translate.. and guessed the title of the song. And now... I realli guessed it correctly!! It's called 'Qing shen de yi ju'.. So proud of my cantonese! Aisay... hehehe

Tml's Mondae... another long day in sch... snorezz...

Yesterdae met up with S and Jin.. we went shopping... I bought myself a **. Thought it costs $59.90.. but..!! I only became aware of the price until the cashier told me.. it costs $79.90!! tian ah...! Nearly jumped down the building.

Me -- handed the cashier $60
Cashier: Thank you, its $79.90
Me: Huh??!
Cashier: yours is the ** rite?
Me: ya...
Cashier: Ya its correct... $79.90
Me: oh... ok
Me -- handed the cashier another $10 note
Cashier: oh.. still short of another $10
Me: ^$#(!@... sorrie..
Me -- parted with my $10 sadly...

I left the counter feeling a little idiotic... Lolz.. blur queen lei! Felt so frustrated at myself.. shld have seen the price tag clearly. Must have mixed it up with the others. Faintz...

2005-11-04T19:57:00.000+08:00

Went to H's hse last eveing... met up wid Jn to escort him thr.. haaha, coz he didn't know the exact way thr.. Bought 2 bottles of Coke on the way thr.. Was abt to ask him to carry when he offered. Lolz... Litte did i realise, these 2 bottles of Coke did wonders larer on through the nite, coz they contained caffine. Hehhe...

We played majong throughout the nite... watched a little of 'My Sassy Gal' when towards the end, the dvd somehow was unreadable in H's Apple Mac... Lolz.. Jn and A went out to help us buy tea and coffee, when they saw this coffee shop selling Bah Choh Mee... So the 6 of us ended up eating tt at ard 4+am... haahaha...Duno why we were all famished, coz earlier in the nite we had fried bee hoon H's mom bought. It was quite cosy, coz it was raining heavily outside, yet we were all so safe and sound in the hse.

I reached hm at ard 9.45am, and rushed off to my rm to get my clothes and head of to shower. Aaron was sleeping in my rm, with both the aircon, fan and radio switched on!! Aiya... waste electricity again!... So by 10.15am, I was done with my shower and also had my hair blowed dry.. Off to bed i went and shooed him away.. haaha. I woke up at ard 5.30pm this evening.. still feeling superb drowsy... Oh no! Must sleep early tonite or else i'll confirm miss tml's Msm class.

Thanx Hui! Really had a wonderful time at ur hse... Hope we didn't disturb ur family. Hehhe... Shld try this again.. so fun! Lolz... and thanx to J, A, S and Jn for joining in the fun... I really had so much fun despite the lack of sleep!! But nxt wk shld study more.. coz I feel like i'm falling way behind again. Hehhe =P

2005-11-04T19:52:00.000+08:00

Hahha... helped Sy celebrate her birthday on Wednesday, together with Ah meng. I treated her to lunch and he bought her a small coffee cake. This gal is a coffee-holic... Lolz. haaha... After which we went ard shoppoing, and she bought a new pair of colourful ballerinas. Hey! I picked it for her u noe.. haaha.

Met up wid H, S and J (my 3 sistas) after Sy went off to meet her sec sch frenz. They came with a motive of helping me to find a suitable dress for my birthday + wedding dinner. My cousin is getting married, yet i do not have a decent dress to wear to her weddings dinner, which will be helpd at Fullerton. Muaahahaa... I tried on a few dresses. The black one was quite cute.. but it didnt have my size, it was sold out already. Too bad.. =(

Happy Belated Deepavali and Selamat Hari Raya!

2005-10-30T03:13:00.000+08:00

yawnz...feeling so sleepy. Just came back from Mq's birthday party at Safra chalet... Its quite out of the way, but thank god we had JL las our personal chaffeur. Lolz... She didn't invite many frenz thr, but the place was crowded still... crowded with kids! yeah.. they were running here and there. One boy looked so cute with his protruding tummy... hehhehe!! We played Monopoly there.. can u imagine. But it was quite fun.. and i was declared bankrupt even though having to own the most expensive land. muaahaha... Saw A thr.. think he look more manly now... he look a little like those beach boys with his tanned skin and brown hair. And our senior, Ag, looked like she just came from a biker race with her 'xiao beng' bf.. I call him 'xiao beng' = small ah beng, becoz he is younger den us... and he also looked like an ah beng.. After our monopoly session, we went on to the bowling alley. At 1st, i missed quite a lot of pins.. but after which, i managed to catch up, while the rest was gettin restless and sleepy. lolz...

Overall, the chalet was quite fun... and i was chaffeured home. So i didnt mind staying till so late.. =) And everyone is asking how am I gona celebrate my birthday. Haizz... headache manz. Can i just stay at home and sleep??

Yesterday, we went to sing at K ster, at Lucky Chinatown. I woke up with an itchy throat and started coughing... haizz.. therefore u could have guessed.. I sounded like a chicken... screeching. I couldn't hit the high notes.. and even for low notes, i was kinda choked by my own saliva. After my screeching session with them, we went to Little India's Muthu's Curry for dinner. The food there was great! Or perhaps coz we were all famished? Haahaa... Anyway, i like their sotong and fried fish... yummy! And the ladies were given a complimentary Henna drawing. I had mine done... I think it was quite nice, though it seems a little thick. Xy had trouble keeping her hand to herself, and ended up with stained hands.. Lolz. And we all though it looked shitty... muaahaha.

After which, we continued our trip down to the pasar malam opposite Mustafa. Hehhe...It was quite crowded. we also went to mustafa.. It's my 1st time there... So many ppl shopping for stuff.

Okies its time for my beauty sleep. Ta...!

2005-10-27T02:59:00.000+08:00

Haahaha, I was a little bored, so did this test at www.tickle.com. I was somewhat amused by the results.. lolz. See below...

emily, you're a Guardian Angel!

Chances are you've kicked around the idea of settling down on some shady lane with your honey and maybe even thought about having a kid or a couple of pets. Even if you've never cooked a pot roast or picked out fabric for curtains, we'll bet you've got solid nurturing instincts nestled within. That's why, when it comes to your partner, you're the Mother Teresa of romantic relationships. Doing little things like planning cool vacations and jotting a quick love note, tells your partner daily how much you care. This A+ quality not only makes you a compassionate lover, but also a trusted friend.Here's the rub: You're ready to give and give, but sometimes you might get resentful when your significant other doesn't return the favor. It can be difficult for you to let people fend for themselves, but try to focus on maintaining balance. Be sure to look out for number one, and try to indulge yourself as often as you indulge those you care about.

Hmm.. somehow.. i find it a little true. haahaha....

2005-10-27T01:32:00.000+08:00

Lolz... i re-did my blog again.. this time with a new skin. Coz i thought it was kinda difficult to read from the old one... This one looks gd too! (or so i thought)

Guess wat time i woke up today? Without the help of the alarm clock, i woke up at 3pm! yeah.. i know im lazy. Thanx... haahaha. I didn't know why i'm so tired. I just felt so drowsy... Slack was what i did the whole day. Was suppose to go jogging, coz the weather was gd today. But i felt so lazy.. so tired.... So i stayed indoors and watch cartoon instead.

Gramma's going for her eye operation tml. I'm kinda worried. I asked if she needed anesthetic... but my dad didnt answer my qns. But thinking to myself.. of coz she needed that jab.. or else, how whld the doctor operate on her eye lids? If there is no anesthetic jab, then she'll blink, den the docs can't operate on her rite? But i'm worried abt the risk of taking that jab..I'm worried abt the side effects.. Coz gramma is already so old (mind u, she's 90), not sure if she can take it. I appreciated tt how this fren of mine told me not to worry abt it, tt the operation whld be fine. Thanx... kinda ease my fears... =)

I thought of accompany her to the hospital, together with my daddy, but i was told my aunt whld be there too. So gramma asked me to stay at hm to look after the maid. Snorezz... I hate doing tt. Lolz.. Maybe i can study a little i guess...

Anyway, i thought of explaining myself here. Just in case some ppl thought I'm suffering from some kinda depression, coz i seem to be always talking abt my late grampa and ah ma. Nope i'm not suffering from depression, but i am just oftenly reminded of them. This is because my grampa passed away last yr, when i was revising for my yr1 exam. It took me around a year to make myself not to always think of it.. but when my ah ma passed away this August...everything reappear again. That is why i'm always reminded of the sad events. Who whldn't lurv to be happy? I am... or i mean, i do. But not when i'm reminded of such events... I am happy to have such a caring family (minus the nagging,bickering) I do have quite interesting parents and siblings. And i have a grp of caring frenz.. whom i really appreciate. I thank everyone for playing a part in my life...even if its just a small part/role.

I don't mean to do the things i do.. like screaming or shouting at my parents, esp my dad and younger bro. Sometimes i'm just frustrated when they don't get me. I'm sorry.. but i just did it again. (No, i'm not singing Britney's song) Daddy just asked me why am i so angry, talking so loudly at him... ya, think i do flare very easily at my family. I guess i took things for granted. Have you ever thought of such things too? I told myself i must mellow down, and appreciate them more...For when I'm growing older each year, they're growing older on the other hand. haizz... this is gona be tough. In fact, nothing is easy.

I laid on bed yesterday nite, thinking of the experiences my frenz told me. One of them had lost her grandparents within the same year. Ya, i know its hard to accept the fact... That is why i'm too afraid to think of that... that grampa will take gramma with him,... that gramma will leave with grampa. I'm not sure how will i react to that. But i'm glad that she's still here. I can celebrate my 21st birthday with her around. And i really pray i can wear my graduation hat and take a picture with her. That's my main aim at this moment. So, i must work hard to pass my final year subjects. But somehow i feel i'm still quite slack even though having to meet up with frenz and to study together. Did i not put in effort? I feel that wat i've read comes in from one ear and out it comes out from another ear... Lolz. But i reassure myself its better than not touching the notes at all. Haahaha.. self assurance!

Somehow i feel more assured and more at ease each time after blogging. Coz i can pour out my sorrows without troubling anyone. No i don't need anyone to pity or feel sorry for me. I just need them to empathise with me... meaning i need them to understand and to think like me. Quite tough huh...Hmmm.

Time to sleep! yawnzz...

2005-10-26T01:36:00.000+08:00

HA! What a way to start my day... Had difficulty pulling myself out of bed, just to prove i won't skip my mm class. Was late, hence i took the train instead... Reached clementi mrt.. waiting for the bus, den my hp rang..

'Ring Ringg...'
Me: hello? J ah... wat isit?
J: hello... em ah, tell u ah, class is cancelled!

Faintz... i tot she was joking, but knowing her, don't tink she'll joke abt such stuff.. and its a weird time to joke too. Haiyoz! waste my time, effort, money and precious beauty sleep! Oh manz... My lecturer also cancelled his class yesterday... who knows? He also cancelled today's class... There was no notice at all! aAaarrggg.... Anyway, we proceeded to Mac to have our breakfast.. and later studying at Hans.. Den it started to rain heavily.... REAL heavily.. until our papers nearly flew away... We went off... thought of going into the library to find seats.. but there were none. So we thought of going back to the Mac opposite the lib.. BUT... it was flooded!! Half of the Mac was 'raining' too!! muaahaaahha... the Mac staffs were even using their brooms to push the rain water out of the outlet. And you have seen that for uself... we saw the rainwater from the 2nd lvl... flowing like a mini waterfall.. to lvl 1 of the Mac. Lolz.. how funny... But we managed to get back to Hans.. at least the rain got smaller. Pheewww....

I wonder why it rained the whole day today.. it was very cold... and somehow made me moody. Luckily i had frenz making funny and stupid jokes.. Somehow made my day! =) Duno wat who poke/ touch who's butt... and fond memories of childhood days... hhehehe...

Had dinner at a malay shop near Bugis... the food was ok... the rendang, though quite nice... was overflooded with red chilli oil! Goodness me...

Gave my mopm the bracelet i made for her.. She said its beautiful! yippe...! And she was surprised i made it myself.. yeah! Coz i've always been notorious within my family, for being clumsy.. like a cow in a china shop. haahaaa...But daddy was somewhat fussy abt my master piece. Without wearing his glasses, he could tell my bracelet was a little loose at 1 end! I didn't even see it... lolz. Aiya daddy... it's not even real pearl. Speaking as though its worth some hundred bucks.

I'm tired... feeling cold......Coz of the weather, and partly coz i switched on the aircon full blast just now. ha...

I'm afraid to stay up alone at nite, only to find myself tinking of the past... How weird...Haiz.. shall stop talking abt it..

2005-10-23T17:15:00.000+08:00

Hurray! This is my 1st time having do a blog without anyone's help... I mean manual help. heeheehe.

This blog may look cramp, but i lurv this colour! So i'll use it for sometime 1st... before changing another 1 when im free...

Enjoy! =)

2005-10-23T13:26:00.000+08:00

I received a shocking news yesterday... that my 8th granduncle had passed away.... Though i address him as Granduncle, he is about the same age as my daddy. Thus meaning he's only 53 years of age...haizz.

Actually life is very brittle.. for you'll know when your time is up. The last time i saw him was during last year's Chinese new year. Grampa was still around I remember... coz I even helped him to cut his nails, scratch his back, apply moisturiser and to help him to wear his new shirt my youngest aunt bought. My granduncle came from China, partly to visit his eldest brother (my grampa) and also partly for a holiday trip. My grampa's birthday falls on 1 week after the Lunar Chinese new year.. so that was the last chance the 3 brothers took a photo together... So now, only 4th granduncle is left. Same for him, his health is also deteriorating... It is sad to see your loved one slowly weakening, yet what you can do is limited. It is not beyond our means to do what is opposite of nature, except to try to make them feel better in this process of deterioration.

I think of grampa and ah ma now and den... It was raining last nite, and before it actually rained, i saw lightning... I remember how Grampa used to cover me with a blanket when i was young. Coz the sound of the thunder always scares me. How he used to shield me from mummy is wacking me with a cane in her hand... He is really my grampa in shiny armour, always there to protect me. He'll always be my beloved grampa...

As for ah ma, though I'm not as close to her as me to my grampa, i still love her. As i grew older, i became more mature. She too, finally saw the beauty in me... my heart.. She is always askin my mom not to scold me. haaha.. come to think of it, it is quite funny. She always praise me, saying I'm gd.. She didn't understand why my mom still keep scolding me.

Actually it is always in times of need, that you'll finally see they beauty in ppl... I mean, this is the time you'll know who treats you best, who is true to you...That is the reason why i do not like ppl who sweet talk..Perhaps that is the reason why I am more straight forward with my words and thoughts.. sometimes speaking without thinking of the consequences behind my words. Hence my Grampa will always be my role model... "Just do it" without complaining. All actions and no words...

Anyway, as we were discussing abt 8th ganduncle, my aunt was saying his wife sure will faint of grieve.. I also thought too.. coz his wife is soo thin. Actually, she led a very sad life. She's scrawny thin, dark... you can tell she has been a worker all her life, facing the harsh reality of life. haizz....

2005-10-19T17:07:00.000+08:00

Today's a rainy day.. so nice for sleeping and staying indoors. Having the urge to snuggle under my blanket and to lie there forever.. haaha.

Nth much to do todae.. was listening to the radio, when i heard a familiar song. Reminds me of the days back at OCBC. it goes like this ...

"heyyYyy...hHhheyy BABY!! I wana knowwWwW... if u'll be my gal...!!" (repeat chorus)

That time we were doing our work, feeling so restless, and when this song was aired on the radio, Mr Mickey suggested we ask everyone in the office to dance with this song. haahaa... crazy guy. And he even demonstrated how to clap the hands.. and to dance around. MIss those days... wonder hows everyone. Haven't seen Mickey and Porykey in sch... ever since tt time we met up. Kinda miss everyone...I forgot to mentioned, Stitch called me one nite to ask me abt the Deepavali gathering. He'll be bringing his gf.. wel well. From what he has described, seem to me that this gal is one of a spitfire. I'd better stay my way clear of Stitch just in case there's any misunderstanding. muaahaha...

Spoke to Jin yesterday, think she's very stress up from work. She even broke down in office. Poor gal... Too bad I'm not there to proteact her liao. I used to be dot's and jin's armour... I have the tendency to protect my frenz if they are in trouble...But not now anymore.. coz they are out in the working society. Hopefully, they'll be used to the cruel endless no life working society.

yawnz...I'm sleepy. Oh! It's cartoon time! tata...

2005-10-18T23:58:00.000+08:00

Sunday was gramma's birthday... We went to Plaza Parkroyal Hotel for dinner... Dinner was fabulous! Before dinner, i went to the market to help collect the 3kg birthday cake, coz daddy was too tired. muaahaa... It was pouring so i had to walk very slowly coz i was afraid of slipping and crushing the cake.

I think this was the very day gramma was truly happy... smiling away. I wished her happy birthday in cantonese rite after i washed up in the morning. I was glad to see her happy too!

Attended sch as usual on Monday... and my Esap class was in the afternoon. Felt so tired and sleepy... Moreover, the jokes weren't funny... and my lecturer was saying 'if you can't sense lurv, den u are senseless?' hmm... I was a little confused. Later, when he was half way through the lesson, he used chinese funeral as an example. I was feeling kinda uncomfortable.. troubled.. confused, and also tired. So i think i was frowning. Nearly wanted to go out of the class, but didn't coz i was also too lazy to walk out.. sianz. hui asked me why i'm giving such a sour face... isin't becoz of the example the lecturer gave? hmm... half half i guess. haizz... i can't understand why did the class gave stupid links to a funeral.. like eating curry chicken.. paper cars... and what not.

2005-10-16T01:45:00.000+08:00

Oh...! My little finger hurts..... I was trying to rub away the blue black part on the bus, on the way to sch. I was feeling so tired, i nearly wanted to skip today's lecture. pheww... but i manged to pull myself out of bed. hehhe.

Boarded the bus... and was trying to sleep, when i notice a middle age lady and an old lady board the bus. When they found a seat, the middle age lady (i think she's de old lady's daughter), she sat inside, so leaving the old lady to sit outside. When I was about to drift into dreamland, I heard someone spoke quite loudly. And i open my eyes and saw the bus ticket conductor was trying to lift the old lady onto her seat. Apparantly, she had fallen off her seat. Her daughter doesn't seem interested when the conductor was trying to explain what happened to her mom. After which, she went back to sleep, so did the old lady. How can she be so... inconsiderate?! I mean, she should have let her mom sit inside rite? And she didn't even bother to help her mom back onto her seat.. so unfilial!

I hate/ detest/ loathe unfilial ppl... how can they be so ungrateful... Sometimes when i hear ppl leaving their parents in the old folks home, i feel so angry and sorry for them! For they have forgotten their parents were the ones who brought them into this world... and who raised them till this age.

I feel sad and jealous when i see how other grandparents dote on their grandchildren. I missed the days when we were still young, with no worries and troubles. I really missed the old days... I really feel like going back to those days. I always wonder how are grampa and ah ma doing up there. Are they happy? Can they see me? haizz...

I keep pondering over few issues... like:

1) Are you really happy when you are laughing? Or are you just amused by someone/ something at that very moment?

2) What is happiness? Being loved by someone?...Or Loving someone? Or just.....Trying to be yourself?

3) Do we really know what is love? Or just simply obsessed with the word 'Love'?

Can I just be ME at all situations and with different people around? I do think its true that some ppl do reaction and behave differently towards diff ppl and diff situations. But can I just be ME.. having the same behaviour any and everywhere?

Can someone pls tell me what I'm thinking? Sometimes I feel so confused.. so tired.

2005-10-14T22:12:00.000+08:00

Does it really what he said? Why isit i seem to take it to heart so seriously? hhmmm... i keep telling myself otherwise... Am I being too sensitive or....

Am i not good with words, thats why ppl don't understand how i feel?

Or am I not good with actions, so I can't express myself clearly?

Hhmmm... okies, enuff said.

Well, well... yesterday went to Marina Square to catch 'Deuce Bigalo' with my uni frenz... It was quite a lame show. Though I was truly amused by certain parts of it... i was laughing happily when i felt there is silence beside me.. The main focus of the show.. as its title has suggested, revolves round the important organ of a male. haaha... Go guess what it is?

*Winks winks...*

Just came back from playing volleyball, soccer and captains' ball at Sentosa. Today's weather wasn't very good, unlike that in the afternoon. It started to drizzle.. but we still continued with our game. I learnt the actual way of serving the ball over.. but with a price to pay. The ball hit my right last finger's vein... and it ended blue black. Now that I've kept rubbing it, it became maroon. haizz... I actually complained of hand pain, but my partners doesnt seem to get what i mean, only a few times they helped me to serve the ball over. I have red 'poka dots' appearing on my right forearm too... not that others don't have it... but... Excuse me?? I'm still a GIRL!!

'Red poka dots' = Red veins appearing on the hand....= after effect of serving the ball.

But anyway, think the guys had a considerable number of injuries too! 1 accused me of trying to rob him of his manhood... and pushing me to the ground. My gf also accidentally kick me with her knee.. haaha.. But i know it was done unintentionally la. But they also played quite rough... Trying to pull me when i was trying to grab the ball. So inturn, i also tried to push them and step on their foot. haahaha....

I wore a backless top today, thought i can tan my back to a perfect brown... Yes i do know its ugly..... stop harping on it. Its my back... not yours!!

I'm sleepy... there's Msm class tml. yawnz...

2005-10-12T21:34:00.000+08:00

haahaha.. i just went jogging before dinner... feeling so healthy wor..

den watched tv, and saw J on tv... my mom said i shld join the programme coz that will help me to loose weight faster and it'll be more effective with the help of professionals! tian ahh....

Yesterday went to Bras Brasha's Mac to study... haaha, so hardworking yea? But I only managed to practise my MM.. and did some copying of my ICP (coz i lost my study guide.. haizz). Had dinner at Agisan Ramen.. quite nice ah, but it was very filling and i thought that their noodles was a little hard.. perhaps they shld have left it a little longer in the pot.. laalala.. den we went to the arcade at Bugis tp play CS. muaahahaa... think i'm getting hooked onto it liao. tsk tsk tsk...

This Sunday is gramma's birthday.. she'll be hmm.. 90 or isit 91 years old? Hhmm...